Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Door-to-Door

Sometimes stuff just works out better if you seem like you dont give a crap. I think that I've been at so many job interviews that I just didn't care as much as I use to. Don't get me wrong to some extent I cared, but it wasn't going to end my world if I didn't get it. I think I perform much better that way. I use to be a sales guy and I went door to door, toughest job in the world. But it did teach me a lot. I learned not to care and that every customer was a good thing but not the most important thing. It taught me how to move on quickly. It taught me to give my best shot everytime. Come up with new strategies and take the brakes necessary to get focused again. It taught how to get over rejection and not get down on myself but to see a goal. You have to constantly have this goal in mind and not worry about these small things. I guess these are the lessons that always keep me going and keep me fighting in life these days.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Music from 2012

My favorite Albums of 2012:

Hip- Hop and R&B
Miguel- Kalidescope Dreams
Frank Ocean- Channel Orange
Kendrick Lamar- Good Kid Maad City
Big Sean- Detroit
Meek Mill- Dreams and Nightmares
Nas- Life is Good
Usher- Looking 4 Myself
SchoolBoy Q- Habits and Contradictions
Common- Dreamer/Believer

Potential to be on the list:

Game-Jesus Piece
Wiz Khalifa- ONIFC
Wu-BLock

Favorite Songs

Hip-Hop and R&B

Nas- Bye Baby
Frank Ocean- Thinking about you, Pyramids
Miguel- Adorn, Thrill
Meek Mill- Amen
SchoolBoy Q- Hands on the Wheel
Kendrick Lamar- Backseat Freestyle, 
Rick Ross- Stay Schemin
Slaughterhouse- Our House(Extended Version)
Future- Same Damn Time Remix
Juicy J Bandz Make a Dance

(more to come)

OH SH*T I'M AN ADULT

A couple of years ago I had this revelation. I looked in the mirror and thought. I am 25 with a job and I pay my bills mostly on time. OH SH*T I'M AN ADULT. Fast forward to now and although I still am an adult I do not know what the F' I am doing. Comedian Joe Rogan has a bit about when we are young we think by the time we are adults we will have everything figured out. Little do we know is that the older we get the more lost we are. At least for me, I try to look like I have my stuff together but my life is one big rubberband ball. Complicated, many colors and it takes a lot of time to unwrap. I thought I would have everything together by now. But shit I dont have anything together. My mom called me the other day and reminded me that I was an adult and I should have my life setup.

Do we ever know what to do or do we just fake the funk and make up things as we go? Or is it just me...Is my growth being stunted? I wonder if these are age old questions or if I have too much time on my hands thinking about useless stuff.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Sauce

I went to a festival one day. At the festival, they have many different tents. Some of the tents have art and some of the others have food. As I was passing one of the tents by, I mentioned to my friend I wanted to be like this guy at the tent.

This guy was an asian guy in his late 20's or early 30's. He looked like the owner and had about two or three people working for him. Looking at this guy, you can come up with a couple of things.
1 He is pretty smart
2 his parents probably wanted him to become a lawyer or doctor
3 Loves what he does

The reason why I wanted to be like this guy is because this guy followed his passion. His passion for sauce. He didn't become an engineer or doctor because he really loved this sauce. So much love and passion that he decided he would bottle sauce and share his passion with other people. Believe in it so much that he doesn't care about the money at least right now.

I've been wondering what is my "sauce". Looked into my life. I love people, music, gambling, art and sports. But i'm not sure that I love those things so much that I would like to make it my one goal in life to follow and pursue. So hopefully in the next few years I will find my sauce.

IN PURSUIT OF MY SAUCE!!!!!



Thursday, September 13, 2012

Little Wins

Ok mark this down as a DanParkism. "you need a little win everyday because life is gonna suck one day and you have to draw strength on those little wins to survive the big loss." BTW I sound like an asshole by calling it a DanParkism. So sorry. I think over the past years I have been living with this mantra. It started with the Ramen challenge (Refer to  ). Everyday I try to do something that I count as a little win. It could be working out, getting a smile from a stranger, meeting a new person, finding something out about myself or just learning something new. Example: I've been studying Spanish. I went somewhere and recognized the Spanish phrase. I said "Self, you are learning a lot amigo." Win for the day.I call myself "self" sometimes. So try to get a win everyday and maybe write it down. Have a win bank and when that day comes and you need to take solace in something look at those times.

Songs of the day:
Bye Baby- Nas
I really love this song because he just lays everything on the carpet. His divorce was public and he tells the details of what happened. He is not afraid to get intimate with the audience, unlike many of the other rappers. Favorite part is:

And all I seen was selfish cowards, under they breath
Saying why did Nas trust her
But look at yourself, speak louder bro
You live with your babymoms and scared to make an honest woman out of her
And make her your bride, fake pimps you ain’t even alive
At least I can say I tried plus enjoyed the ride

Plus we got our little boy, my little joy and pride
He got my nose, my grill, your colour, your eyes
Next go round I hope I pick the truest type and watch me do it all again
It’s a beautiful life, aight


He enjoyed it and will do it again for the sake of love. Nas the street poet.

LA

Going back to LA.

Tell me some places to go.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Cooking

So lately Ive been cooking for people more and more. I like doing it. But the problem is that I only have like 6 things in my repetoire. I need to develop more. I think I have been cooking more so I can use these people as guinea pigs so when I really need to impress some one I can do it well. Sounds evil.

Actually some of the things I said up there is a lie. Ive only cooked for people twice in the last two weeks. hahaha. But I do enjoy it. I really need to learn how to cook some fancy stuff and blow the panties off of people. Or just one girl. I have been thinking about cooking classses. I have no monies though. I was watching several things off of youtube but they are just ok. I need to learn how to get better with the knife. Get my OJ Simpson game on lock. Even cooking for myself is a pain in the ass. But cooking for yourself is usually the best thing. Maybe I should start practicing for myself.

BTW the BET awards were yesterday. I got to say GOOD Music (Kanyes Group) killed it. I dont have cable so I only saw the performances. Cant find the video. If you want to watch look for yourself.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

bathroom

The bathroom subject has been big in my life right now. So when I was younger I never liked using the public bathroom. I dont think anyone does. I remember taking a poop in elementary school and being so embarrassed. But I had to go really badly. I went to Catholic school and we all had a bathroom time. So I snuck in there. Trying to be discreet as possible, but it was a watery one. Sounded like a bunch of pig slop hitting a puddle. Came out and the kids teased me. By the time I was in highschool, it was pretty normal to take craps. At my job it became a safe haven. A place where I can get away for 15 minutes. We have these motion sensors at work and sometimes the lights would go off while im still on the toilet. Smart phones have revolutionized taking a crap. You dont have to take a magazine in there anymore. You have games, emails, articles and could even do work while your in there now.

Im a fast person on the toliet especially at home. I dont like to waste time. Go in, clean up and leave. Everyone is different. Some people bring their own wet wipes. I think sometimes maybe I should switch it up and become more efficient some way. I dunno we have a whole life of being on the toilet ahead of us.

Heres a funny video:

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day

So a couple of posts ago, I wrote about my mother and how great she is. My father and I do not have that kind of relationship. Really, we dont have any relationship at all. My father left my mom and me when I was about 4. Since then, we really haven't had too much a relationship. I had bitterness and anger towards him. Now all I have is apathy for him. It sucks but thats life right.

But I'll keep on trying to build something with him. Blood is Blood I guess.


Thursday, June 14, 2012

June 1st


June first has always been an important day for me. It is the day I left my mother's house and lived out on my own. I went to a new city. I didn't know anyone and said that I will try to make it on my own. So I called my mom and told her this. Her reaction was what did you do with your time so far. I just drove around the whole day and thought what I did these last four years. A bunch of jobs that haven't really helped me figure what I want to do, no dating relationship currently and it seems like a whole lot of nothing at least on the surface.

There is one thing that has happened. I changed. I'm not sure when it happened. Maybe its been a culmination of the last four years, but when I talk to people who knew me in the past they said I have changed. Changed for the better. My mom mentioned it the last time I saw her. I guess when your parent says something like that it weighs the most. It seems like most of the time they are disappointed in you,  but for them to say that you changed for the better. She said I was more responsible and a couple of other nice things. I gave her the "WTF" look. I was kind of shocked she would tell me that.

So I guess the last four years have been great for my own personal development. Hopefully in the next couple of years, I can look back and say that much more has changed for the better.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Tribal Ferret Dance

A friend of mine told me a thing ferrets do. When two get together, sometimes they get really happy and dance around each other in a circle. He says they do it so quickly it looks like a ring. He said he saw some ferrets that were red and golden and it looked like a ring of fire. He said its one of the most beautiful things he has ever seen.

He could be making all of this up, but it had me wondering. When have I been so happy, I just danced out of nowhere. Should I just do some dancing when I am happy? Or do I think that I am too old just to dance for joy?I should be more reserved and stuffy. Nah!!! I think the next time I am happy I will do a happy dance.Now its time to think of the moves?????

Saw this video. I like it alot. but its very dark. Not ferret worthy.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Time Management

I was talking to a friend of mine and he said that it seems like I was good with time management. I laughed. I am horrible with time management, but somehow all the things I want to get done get done. I think its not that I have good management skills, but things to remind me that eventually I need to get those things done. My personality is a guy who is not a planner. I do things spur of the moment. But when that moment is there. I get things done. I dont try to dance around and not do them. I just do.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

DP Feeling

So one day, a friend and I were talking about what we thought of each other the first time we met. I said that he looked like a guy that wanted to fight me. My feeling was that if this guy wants to fight me,ok Ill go ahead and fight him. He said that was weird and he never heard of that before. He called it a "Dan Park Feeling". I think its because Im from Philly (BTW I probably use the "Im from Philly" card a lot.) that I have these feelings.

Im back in Philly right now and I've noticed that a lot of us are always on guard. We (people from Philly) go to places and we are just defensive and ready to fight.

But sometimes you look at people and they look like they just want to attack you. I say bring it on most of the time. With my eyes of course. Next you see me ask what it looks like Ill show you.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Church

I've always loved the church. Growing up, I went to a smaller church maybe of a hundred or so congregation. We had a small kids group. They were like brothers and sisters to me. Some of my fondest memories were at church. We just didn't do church stuff. We did some bad things too. Drugs, gambling and all the otehr things that usually you wouldn't associate with church.

My friend asked me why I spend so much time at church. I told him its because I love it. They are my second family. You don't always like all of the members of your family, but you still love the memebers. I feel that way with church. Church is more than a place of just worship to God, but church should be one body. We love and support each other. When someone is hurting we comfort each other. When we don't like our church, we shouldn't just leave but instead try to change it.

People love to dwell on the negative sides of church. "I like God, but hate organized religion" many people say. They say church goers are hypocrites. But when you look into your own liffe aren't you a hypocrite. Aren't we all just sinners, who need God. But God says that we need the body also and the body needs us. We are not loners in the world with our own beliefs. We are suppose to be a community. I feel like thats what we are lacking in society today. People like being in their own space. They like not having to talk to people. I use to be like that too. I said to myself that they can see one side of me but not the other. I realized later on that was the wrong thinking. Or I say I don't want people in my life. I have enough friends. I was wrong. When we have community, we are held accountable. We have people who love us and are able to rebuke us because we are wrong so so so many times in our lives.

I will finish my thought on this someday.....

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

My mother was a single mom since I was four. I am always grateful to her for the sacrifices that she had to make. Her family is an academic famiy. She had a chance to be a professor at a college in Korea when my father left me. But she chose to stay in America and work at Dunkin Donuts. She chose me instead of a career or even a better life. She could have left me with my grandparents but she chose to stay. I will always be thankful for that.

 She always felt bad that she didn't give me the life that I deserved and thought that she could have given me a lot more when I was growing up. I always thought she did a great job but she always felt guilty. The greatest thing she gave me was love. She was always affectionate, encouraging and nurturing


She still is one of my best friends. Shes loves hearing my voice. Gets excited hearing from me. Always loving me more than I loved her.

  When I was young maybe around 5 or 6, I wanted a happy meal from Mcdonalds. I asked her to get me one, but she said that we were too poor and we couldn't afford it. So, we just passed it by. About an year later, my mom made more money. We stopped by Mcdonalds and she bought me a happy meal. Ater that day, we stopped by every day ffor almost a week. I was sick of it and asked my mom why we kept going there. She said that she felt so bad that one day she couldn't buy the happy meal that she felt like she owed it too me.

 My mother is always thinking about others. I have never met someone so selfless and dont think I ever will. Always giving to her family. She changed careers from being a store owner to a computer programmer to registered nurse.An amazing woman. A single woman with a kid, doing great things.


I gave this song to her as a Mother's Day Present when this song first came out. She put it on replay for months. It was the single by the way. Not the full album.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Applebees

So, I just came back from Applebees and realized that it has been my hang out place for years. I know sounds kind of sad. Its a place with mediocre and service. The environment is not the best. But for the past 10 years, it  has been a place that I have constantly gone. A place where I've had some deep meaningful conversations and also a place where we talked about useless stuff.

See the reason why Applebees was always good is because of the 1/2 price appetizers after ten.Seeing that I am and was broke all the time, It was the perfect place to go. For some reason too, conversation is always better late at night. Maybe because your tired and you let your guard down a little.

Before, it was a group of four of us. We would go and talk for hours. I dont remember most of the things we use to talk about. Now, Its usually three of us. We usually watch the games and talk. I still dont know what we usually talk about. But we always have fun.

Song of the day:


Saturday, April 28, 2012

Cheesesteaks

So While I'm in Philly, I will list my favorite cheesesteaks. I like my cheesesteaks with fried onions, mushrooms and provolone. Some times with wiz but thats just on occasions.

1 Johns Roast Pork- Best in the world. The meat is great. Its on a seeded bun. Bread is delicious. Hard on the outside and soft on the inside, kinda like me.

2 Chinks- Meat is just great. You also can get a mean shake as well. Old time feel inside the restaurant.

3 Steve's Prince of Steaks- Staple of the North East. I like this one with wiz.

4. Tony Luke's- You also can do the five pound Cheese steak challenge.

5. Dalessandro's -meat and onions are chopped nicely. Cheese well spread out over the roll.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Five minute Friend

In sales there is a thing called making a five minute friend. Basically while you are with the person, you become their friend just in that first five minutes of meeting them. You get them to tell you things. For some reason too, its always easier to tell dark or crazy stuff about your self to strangers. Then you sell them what you have. The better you are at that the better sales man you will be.

I'm in Philly right now. The thing I loved about the Northeast is people will talk to you. Especially in the supermarket or any kind of line. For example, today I was in line at barnes and nobles coffee section. The line was super long and only one person was working. We started chit chatting in line about the amount of stress the girl must feel trying to get stuff done as quickly as possible. We started talking about tv shows and then where they lived. I think that is one of the things I really miss about this area. Interaction with strangers. Making a five minute friend.

A Day in the Park

If you are a frequent reader of my blog, You will remember my post on what two guys cant do together. I did one of these things, although I did not list it. It still should be on there and that is going to the park and doing what I did.

So, It all started as a normal day. I went to eat with my friends and I was running late. After we were done eating, my friend thought it would be funny to suggest that we go to the park and have a picnic. He thought I would be totally against it because that would be gay. I said :sure, and I have some bread to bring." He told me he was joking. The original plan was to go the shooting range.

The day was so nice I said "lets go to the park." We decided to go and get kites and feed the ducks. I know sounds super gay right. But I've got to say that it was great. I felt so free and child like as I flew my kite. My kite also flew the highest. Here are some pictures below. Next time you are wondering what to do on a beautiful day you might want to go to the park.

Friendship Bracelets Cause were friends!!!

Ducklings!!

Being a Jedi!!!

Happiness!!!

Breaking the Rules





Thursday, April 19, 2012

Marriage...

I always wanted to get married, but always late in my life. I never wanted to marry too early. I even think 35 was the best age too get married. But recently I was talking to a friend of mine, he was talking about his marriage and how happy he was. He started describing their relationship, the comfort he has with her and how he likes being around her all the time. As he was speaking, I was feeling envious of what he has.

As the weeks pasted, I've gone to a wedding and seen peoples marriages. I want the same thing. For the first time in my life, I know that I am ready at least emotionally for marriage.Its a weird thing to say. (Also, I'm not looking to get married this year or anything. Its just that if I know I meet the right girl, I wouldn't hesitate to pull the trigger.) A friend of mine told me 2 years ago that he was ready for marriage. I looked him in the eyes and said "Your crazy" and "I'm not". I guess people will look at me as the crazy one now.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

No it all

I am a pretty young man still, but when I was younger I thought I knew it all. Like most young people, I thought I was invincible. I could do anything because I was smart, young, full off energy and ambition. But the one thing that I never accounted for was experience and wisdom.

I had my own business at the age or 20. My partner and I thought we were gonna be millionaires by the age of 30. No one could stop us. After a few years, I learned that the reality is that everything stops you. Its a cold reality when you learn that you know nothing at all. All the things you thought were true are really not. The day that you find out that you know nothing, thats when you get your real wisdom.

When I found out that I dont really know anything, the world opened up to me. The search for knowledge was greater. I became more of a sponge and tried to learn from my elder especially. But I also found out that I don't need to know everything. Everything has its place and sometimes we just need to just trust in that if you know what I mean. If you dont, then it might someday.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Ride Slow

Today I was in a part of town that I am not usually in. I had to meet someone. After doing what I needed to do, I decided just to start driving. When I was in college, I would like to just drive. Didnt really have any destination. Sometimes would just get lost on purpose. I would get in the car and think. Sometimes I would pray. I haven't really done this in a while, but today I decided to. Have the radio on and drive. I think about the future and what it holds. I think about present and what I could be doing better or how I could build specific relationships. I think about the past and how things have changed. I usually drive for about an hour or two. Sometimes Ill park the car and just listen to the radio for a little bit. Its peaceful. No one next to me. Im not worried about the phone. Just me and my thoughts really. The road offers many opportunities. I guess serenity is one of them.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

What two men cant do together

The other day I was at the museum. I was with a girl and a guy. I was wondering if it were gay or socially (like wearing an all velvet suit)not acceptable to go with another man. Here is my list. Please leave some comments and tell me what I should add.

Two men can't go eat tapas. Food is too tiny our hands are too big. Its also pretty dark.

Two men cant go to a movie together unless there is a seat of separation in between.  unless there is no space in the theater.

Two men don't share dessert.

Two men cant go to the bathroom together. They might be both headed there but not to go so they can talk. Gay.

What else cant two men do together?

Monday, March 12, 2012

Resurgence of AZN Pride

I went to highschool in 1998. In the late 90's, Asian pride was a huge thing. I went to a school that was mixed population. 40% white, 30% black, 15 % asian and 15% hispanic. So we had a good number of asian people in my school. We stood up to all of the other races. Matter of fact, alot of the asians were pretty gangsta. But of the Asians you had different races. You had the Korean, Philipino, Chinese, Cambodian and Vietnamese. Everyone was reppin their own thing ie KP (Korean Pride), Pinoy pride, Khymer pride, I forgot what the chinese were. We had Xanga and stupid screen names, but all of those things came from a pride and rebellion against the other races. I think we were tired of being looked at as a weak race because we weren't loud bosterous people. Overlooked by the public.

But it seems like in the late 2000's the Azn pride fell off. It felt like we are always trying to fit in with some of the other cultures whether it be black or white. Sure asians are more in the media and hollywood, but we weren't as expressive of our pride as before. Movies like the Hangover kind of set us back. KEN JEONG!!!!!! Then about a month ago Jeremy Lin pops on the scene (I don't like him by the way, but ill explain  in a  different post. Personal reason). Linsanity was everywhere.

Now its March and it kinda died down. But the thing about Linsanity was the resurgence of Asian Pride. If you looked on your Facebook, there were at least ten mentions of Lin. Asians were back on the forefront. Lin got the cover of Sports Illustrated twice (back to back). It seems like people were proud as hell to be asian again. We were angry about ESPN putting chink on their homepage link, mad at Floyd Maywhether link and other racists link.

The real story isn't Jeremy Lin, but its Asians actually being openly proud again. As an Asian man, I'm freaking excited. Were always portrayed as guys who are soft spoken, nerdy and weak. I'm tired of all the races thinking they can just take our girls all the time (they like them because they are "exotic"). People think they can just get over on us. But you know what we are also people with great pride. With Jeremy Lin, we are changing they way they look at us. We can have swag. We can dunk. I cant though and probably never will. I hope that he does well. I hope that we swell up with pride. I hope we can start changing how people think of us. I thought Id never see a black president, but it gives me hope that an Asian can rise up before I die as well.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

60 percent

So this is why God is good. I am a hater by nature. I think I don't like about 60% of the people I meet, maybe even 65%. I just look at them and say I don't like that person. It might because they say something or act a certain way. I just don't really like people most of the time. When I do like a person, it takes me a long time not to like that person anymore. I give them a bunch of little chances in my mind.

God is good because He has been changing me in that department. I say "Dan, you don't know this guy enough to make a judgement." Still there are some people I don't like. But having that thought of giving that person an extra chance is huge. Hopefully in a year, Ill only not like 40% of the people I meet.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Too young to be feeling this old

I'm 27 right now. You hear the common expression act your age. The difficulty with that is "what are people my age suppose to act like?" I don't feel like an adult because I really don't have any responsibilities mortgage, children, spouse etc.

 The other day I went home early to relax on a Friday night at 10pm. I got home and part of me didn't want to "relax". I wanted to go out and do something.But I was home by myself, I felt extremely old and boring. Now don't get me wrong, I do like staying in sometimes. But it has to be with people. Just to go and be by myself on a Friday night. LAME. I looked in the mirror and the guy in the mirror said "Yo! What the hell are you doing!! Your young, you can't ever regain your youth. STUPID!".

Another example of me getting old, I met a couple of college girls I knew and they were on their spring break. I asked them what they were doing. They said they were going to hang out and get some drinks. They asked if i wanted to come. It was 11pm on a Thursday. I said I was tired and would hang out next time. If it were last year, I could have partied to the early morning and went to work. I would have been fine.

If you look at my last entries, I sound old. Not being good at texting. Sounding like a curmudgeon. I hate everything. I like oatmeal. I like pudding. Im sounding like an old man more and more.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Smile

I wasn't feeling the best this morning. I went down the stairs to my car to get something. This woman who was middle aged and average attractiveness gives me a look and a smile. It was "Hey, have a good morning type of smile." That smile really brightened up my day. I wasn't really attracted to her so it wasn't a sex thing. But it reminded me of the goodness in the world. Ive said this before its the small things that propels your life.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Runaway

Running away is a lot easier than facing the problem head on. I have to say that I ran from a couple of my problems. The thing is that the problem will always be there. Its hard to face things head on, sometimes I try to forget about the issue or put it to the side. Because if you face it head on most likely you are gonna crash. Nobody likes to crash. Good thing about facing the problem is that you can actually solve or help fix the problem. Sometimes just acknowledging the problem is key. I wonder why I have the tendency to run.

Running reminds me of my father. I remember confronting my father about this . He said to me in Korean " I didnt run away. I left." I gave him a "N*gga What" look. Weak ass excuse. Running is the being a coward. I'm afraid that I will become like my father and be a runner.

I went to a thing tonight. It was a bunch of people who came from this halfway house kind of thing. Basically a couple of guys talked about this subject. I was blessed because they use to be people who ran. But they were  not those people any more. They changed. I can change too. We all can change.





Leap Day

Leap day is a day that doesn't really exist. Its only here once every four years. I should get married on leap day so I only have to remember my annerversary. So I was thinking of stuff I would do if this day didn't really count. Kinda like the movie groundhogs day, except I wouldn't do anything threatening my life.

Slap the ish out of a stranger. Why? Don't ask stupid questions or I'll slap you too.

Test drive a Ferrari

Crash the Ferrari

Run out on the court or ice of a professional game. (Don't tase me bro)

Pee on the owner of the company I work for. Preferably his face.

Steal a bunch of money from a scumbag and then give it to the poor.

Throw an outrageous party with the poor people.

Im not too creative. So you guys have better ideas. Let me know.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Bad Texter

So these days when you flirt with someone you have to know how to text. Back in college texting was big but I really never did it. Flirting with girls in person is easier because they can hear your tones, sarcasm stuff like that. Well Im not the best flirter too.Probably because most times I just don't give a sh*t and just try to have fun.Im much better in person than over text I think.



 I still only have a limited number of texts.
So I like this girl and now you have to start texting. So Im texting but my texts are kinda weird. At least in my mind. Also do we have to put smiley faces everywhere. Smiley face, winky face, tears running down face, sad face, love faces etc.Shit I dont know I get really confused by all this crap. You know you start texting but Im mad tired and want to get ready for bed. Ill just cut it off like "ok I got to go. Laters."

I guess I usually just end stuff really badly like that. Again its because Im a little too honest. Its like a plane going in for landing. But instead of letting my speed down and and preparing to land. I just freaking crash the plane. The analogy is probably the best analogies for my love life. Subtley is not always the easiest thing for me. Like when Im on the phone, I will hang up on people all the time.

So talked to a couple of people. Actually, more than a couple of people about texting. Learned some things. Working on my finese. Maybe next time I am working texting game I will be better.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Facebook Effect

The one thing I hate about our social media need it now society is the facebook or twitter effect. Knowing something about somebody and starting off the conversation there. Kind of kills conversation these days. Before you wanted to talk to somebody to get to know things, but now its like ask somebody about an event instead of letting conversation flow or saying what they wanted to say. You might not under stand what I am saying. Let me give you an example.

Before Facebook:

Guy: Hey, haven't seen you in a while. What have you been up to?
Girl: Yeah its been a long time. We have so much to catch up on. I've gotten a promotion and to celebrate we went out to  restaurant to celebrate ........

Now:

Guy: Hey haven't seen you in a while. I heard you got a new promotion. How was (Random restaurant)
Girl: Yeah haven't seen you in a while. Its great meeting you again. Yeah I got a new promotion (girl is thinking: this is kinda creepy that this guy knows this about my life). The job is awesome. That restaurant was pretty good. ( Girl is thinking:Oh shit this guy is creepy as hell. I only met him twice and he know where I ate yesterday. I think I should stop writing stuff on facebook. I am about to tweet about this.)

Social media has made us more socially retarded. All of us are stalkers. We can't talk to people anymore in more than 180 characters.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Turtle

There is this kid at Sunday school. Hes in Kindergarten and he is really cute. We call him turtle.  He also has the same name as me. The one thing that is really noticeable about him is that he is really excited and passionate about life.The kid jumps up and down. Screams. yells. Life should be like that. We shouldn't be stoic people. We should be people filled with exuberance.

 I was thinking about my life. This kid with the same name as me. Do I have the same zest for life? I think I do. I like my life. I like thinking that everyday is new and if we are not passionate and living like a zombie than that is a sin. We are put in places because of some reason. Life sucks sometimes. Sure, but when I look at this kid it reminds me taht if we let life kill our spirit we should just stop living. I read a blog the other day. This girl said she has not lived with any regrets since highschool. I look at my life and ask myself" am I like that".

Ive been thinking about the course my life is on lately. I think I need to live life with more excitement. I am going to try to smile more. Not mope around but live freely. Dance if I want to. Yell at someone if I want to. Be the Turtle!

Things I learned this weekend 2/12

Fear of God- There was this thing at church. I was asked to pray for people. So I did. There was this one kid who came and he asked if I could pray for him. He was trembling the whole time. I felt the Lord there. The next day we talked about God at Sunday school. We were talking about us not fearing the Lord anymore. Then again some time during the day we were talking about trembling. I am currently reading the old testament, numbers to be exact. God continuously talks about killing someone if they do the wrong procedure. I then knew that I dont take God seriously enough sometimes. I dont think that He will strike me down but He will. We need to treat God with reverence and respect. Fear is a good thing.

The man that I dont want to become- I am not really sure what I want to be but I know what kind of man that I dont want to become. I met a man at this wedding last week. He was actually a friend of my father. I knew some of his history because people talk. He was a guy that left his family with a woman. He did that on two separate occasions. I cannot really understand these people. How can you leave apart of you? How can you leave your children? How can you just leave? Thats the person I dont want to be. The guy that runs because shit gets too hard.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I got a man.....

So I went to a wedding last night. After the ceremony, it was cocktail hour. Two women friends and I were drinking in this one area. Before we know it, we see about 4 or 5 Ajusshis. Ajusshi means older gentlemen in the Korean language. Say it with me now, A-jus-Shi, Good Job. The Ajusshis were drinking Johnny Black Whiskey. They brought it in from the outside. They had it in a brown paper bag. Gangsta!!!! The two women and I saw that and wanted in on the action. The one girl starts chatting them up and getting some whickey. I drin my beer quickly to get some but was too late. Round 2 they give me some. We start talking. They were a little tipsy. Funny guys. Real Men. Oldschool.

They were talking to me and wondered if that one girl was dating me.I told them no and that she has a man. The one guy looks me in the eye and says," Just because there is a goalie, doesn't me you can't score." I start cracking up. It sounds like his version of " What your man got to do with me." Ive never really been down with that though. I believe there is a code of honor among men. Don't mess with someones girl. I'm also not that kinda guy. I know those type of guys and I know what they do. But that kinda stuff is not for me.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Celeberties that piss me off

Kim Kardashian- Why are you famous? Because you slept with a B level celebrity and your dad is a world class lawyer. Are you hot? Yes!!! But your annoying as hell. Everyman knows that hot girl who is batshit crazy and this is that girl. She got the crazy family and equally as stupid and crazy friends. Sure you backside looks amazing, Im not sure in ten years. Wear those shape ups girl.

Ashton Kutcher- You made Killers. You made New Years Eve. You are making (somehow even though it already sucked, but curious enough my mom loves it) 2 1/2 men even worse.

Jessica Alba- Take some acting classes. You suck as an actress. I can look at you all day long. Because of you I watched Honey and Into the Blue. Because of you I don't really feel like it was that much of a waste of time. But girl learn to act. Good job on losing the baby weight though.

Katy Perry- Stop trying to be the White Nikki  Minaj.

Rihanna- stop getting tats of thug life and guns. No wonder men beat you up.

Channing Tatum- OMG you suck. Your movies are terrible. Almost as bad as Ashton Kutcher.

Bradley Cooper- Man just admit your gay. Its ok. We dont really care.

Jessica Simpson- Looking at you makes me want to eat something.

Person I love:






Carrying a case of Beer!!! Wow!!!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Crazy Women

Ok so the title was gonna be crazy bitches, but I just put it as women. This one woman at work. Now currently my former employee. She did this thing twice. Basically had intimate relationships with two men in the office and then went batshit crazy.

Story 1.

This guy and this woman (crazy woman) ride in the morning together because this crazy woman got too many DUIs and get her license suspended. They start hooking up as friends. The guy tells her what the relationship is and they are cool with that. They even go to bars and help hook each other up. One day the guy goes to this bar and starts hitting on this woman. The crazy woman is drunk and then goes up to the woman being hit on and tells her all this stuff. Guy goes outside to relieve stress. Crazy goes outside adn confronts him. Crazy flags a police offiecer and tries to get him arrested. Officer was on her side til he ran her license and found out she was Crazy. Next day in the office Crazy follows the guy outside and watches him smoke. Crazy confronts the guy and tells him that she loves him. Guy wasnt having anything to do with it. Crazy makes a ruckus in the parking lot. Crazy goes to Guy's house and starts banging the doors in at his parents house. Guy has to go to HR to report this. Crazy gets transferred to the other office.

Story 2

Guy 2 (lets just call him 2) and Crazy have a past intimate realtionship together. Things are usually cool. Even though they have a psat they are cool. Eventually they start getting together. He is married and starts cheating with her. Everyone knows of the relationship but no one knows that he was married. Crazy starts gaining weight adn becoming comfortable. Crazy starts wanting kids and a real relationship. 2 says that he has kids and maybe they should break this up. Crazy goes crazy. Starts bringing drama and tension to work. Crazy calls 2's wife. Crazy goes to 2's house. Starts going crazy. 2 has to file a restraining order. Crazy quits and I dont know where Crazy is anymore.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Me being Me

Someone said that I was the same as they met me. My character has't changed. I think that might have been the best complement that I have had. Then I thought, man maybe I hit people with the realness too much. I probably should tone me down. They say on dates you should always present the best YOU you can be. I never really followed that. Maybe thats why I am not dating anyone right now. I have no idea.

Part of me just doesnt care about what others think of me. I guess I just get into my Eminem mode and just dont give a F***. I mean why should I. Theyre not me and I am not them.

If you escaped What I escaped you .....

We love to judge the people around us. Everytime we meet someone we think. Oh I like that person or Shit I really dont like this person. Funny thing is most of the time we dont really know them. Sometimes we just catch people on the wrong day. Sometimes they are just more of something that day. Lots of times they are just great at putting the best part of themselves in front of people. Sometimes people are nervous and awkward. There is this saying or study, a woman will know in the first 15 seconds whether she will sleep with you or not. Damn 15 seconds is not that long of a time. If you a not good looking, I bet 13 seconds are lost right there. If you dont do well in public, 14 seconds are probably gone or probably all of the time.

So what I am saying is not that women will sleep with you or whatever, but this one time we meet them. We make these outrageous judgements. I was watching this show, Curb your enthusiasm, they said that since the guy had a ugly wife he had more character. Kinda absurb but maybe true. I usually make these jusgements on little things. For some reason, I dont really like most people I meet. I think that they are just ok or I just really dont like them. I am sure most people deep down are good people. But sometimes I jsut dont like people. Must be the Philly in me.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

59/100 Random

People all my life said I'm a random person. Do I think that? Probably. After so many people telling you somethign you kinda believe it. I think I just say some thoughts just come into my mind.

But really who cares if I'm random or say random stuff. Life is random. All of the sudden your walking to your car and bird poops on you. That is random. I dont believe in the chaos theory or anything like that. But at times life will give you these random events that you got to put together like a puzzle. You get all these pieces but after carefully matching you see the whole picture. I think thats what life is. They say youth is wasted on the young. I guess its meant to be.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

58/100 Uncles Dream

Last post I talked about my uncle and how he is hurt. Hes not a believer and when he was in an acoma. He told me this dream. This dream he was in a beautiful place. He tries to go to this place that was even more beautiful. He goes and opens the door and the door wont open. He wasnt allowed in. I heard that and it freaked me out.

Second dream was when his twin brother was praying for him. He said he felt like his brothers church members were carrying him. They put him on a roof and gathered around him. I have no idea what it means but I just think some things are crazy.

post 57/100 Uncle

My uncle recently got into a big accident. I mean really big. Its gonna take him a couple years to walk again. The funny thing is, I dont know if its funny necessarily, he was injured in his strength. He always relied on his body. He was strong, good fighter. Even at the age of 50, he was winning tournaments for kendo. But God took his strength. He has nothing to rely on now. Looking at him in the hospital it was kinda depressing and pathetic. This was a man I loved and still love and respected. He is not a believer, but God uses our weakness to become strong. I think thats what hes doing for him. Taking his strength and rebuilding him. It hope he comes to Christ.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

56/100 Philly Part 2

I think this was the first year thinking that I wouldn't be visiting Philly if my parents were there. Dont get me wrong I love the City of Philly; The City will always be a part of me. But maybe I have grown and I dont need the City anymore.  I still would love to see some of my friends there, but a lot of my friends have moved. Part of me will always be Philly. But some of the other parts of me have grown into soemthing different.

They say that ever man needs to kill his father(dont ask me where I got this quote, I just heard it one day). Meaning we need to grow with out our fathers help and make our own path. I think I may have done that.

55/100 Resolutions

New year, New Resolutions people say. Not really. I'm trying to eat healthier and cut out fast food. Im trying to go to the gym more also. Im not trying to cut immense amount of weight, but trying to workout and see what I can lose.But Im also trying to work harder. Get the money that I want to make. No more excuses about stuff. Put the ball in my court and see what I can do with it. Now, I am not saying that this year is gonna be about just making money. Its not. Its gonna be about working hard in everything I do. Francis Chan said that you have to "Live out Loud". Damn it, Imma do it this year.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

54/100 Philly Part 1; Second Childhood

Philly. One of the best things about Philly was probably seeing my friends. So my friends and I go to this Korean bar. I see some people I know and they were doing some shit they use to do like ten years ago. My friends and I were like thats messed up. They were hanging out with young girls and everything. I saw some of my other friends and they still look like they are doing the same things we were doing in highschool.

As Nas says, people are living in their second childhood. Some of these people I dont see them growing just wanting to do the same things. Or more appropriately them not wanting to grow. Kinda pathetic, if you ask me. We are grown up people and we should not act like little kids. Not that we have to act all stuffy and old, but not like little frat boy douche bags. Act like your a freaking man.

53/100 3 questions

Went to philly a couple weks ago.  I love philly by the way. Well im from there.  But there are three questions people generally would ask me. 


1 Hows Atlanta?


2 do you like it?


3 are you ever gonna move back?


Generaly i would answer

1 its good


2 yeah i like it


3 i dunno,  whereever my life leads me.


Afterwards if they want more in depth answers,  i would usually tell them that my life is really good right now.  I have a good group of friends.  Job that is ok for now.  I am really good right now.  I am really comfortable.  Life is good.


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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Post 52/100 Traveling

Ive been traveling these past couple of weeks. Philly for about ten days. Vegas for a couple of days. Mostly did family stuff in that time. I got to tell you that traveling sucks. I don't know how consultants do it. I drove up to Philly. 12 hour drive both ways. You pretty much get to think a lot. Analze everything that happened in the past year or so. I though about my future and such things.

Vegas, I took a place. Had one stop both ways. Also got to think of many things. Looked at a lot of people. Basically I will chronicle everything I though of the past couple of weeks.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

51/100 The way I am

Too often these days I have been saying that is just the way I am. I realize that is the worst thing to say. It is true, but I should be working to change that and becoming someone better. Next time I realize that is who I am and my goal is to change that. Slowly try and try to change who I am and become that person that I want to be.I do not want to limit myself. Get my Bradley Cooper. (Limitless).

Yeah that was corny. What do you really expect.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

50/100 Prayers Answered

Its funny that we ask God for stuff and many times we don't really expect our prayers to be answered. I am in a small group where we share with each other and also do bible studies. We talk about life. We pray for things like direction or for someones health or other stuff. The other day, I was looking back upon our prayers. Most of our prayers were answered.

I believe it is important to say it and say it out loud that God answers prayers. He is not a God that is not in our daily lives, but He is our life.2011 was some amazing stuff, but hopefully God will answer more this year and reveal awesome things in our lives.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

49/100 2012

So last year with this blog, I have failed at my goal to do a post every day for a hundred days. This is the new year and it is bascially a time to get back on track and recommit to things that I would like to accomplish. So here we go. 2012 is gonna be the year of change and renewal.