Somebody's Sleeping in MY Bed!!

I was out of town for most of the weekend last Friday. I came home Sunday. I was tired and exhausted. I kind of just wanted to lay in my bed and rest. To my surprise, I find something moving in my bed....It was a bald naked man.... Sorry I lied he was in his boxers. I was kind of pissed. It turns out that this guy was actually my friend's friend, but I dont think you should really be sleeping in a stranger's bed.

Actually, I've had a couple of experiences with sleeping with strange men. I know that that comment will come to bite me back sometime.

I was at this guy's house a friend of a friend. It was a good enough time and he said that we can sleep over. He said that his parents weren't home and that we can sleep in any room that we would like. After a couple of more hours, I decide to call it a night . I walk into the first room and fall asleep. The next morning my friend's friend is telling my friend that I'm a weird person. My friend asks "why?" He said that I went into the room that my friend's friend was sleeping in and I just laid right next to him and slept. He said that my feet were in his face when he woke up. It ended up that me and the other guy became friends.

Another event was when I was 12. I wake up and find some guy in my bed( he was fully clothed). I freaked out and ran out of my room. I wake my uncle up and tell him that I found some strange man in my bed. He told me that after a night out (drinking probably) the other guy decided to crash at our house. My uncle said he could sleep in my bed with me in it. Still kind of creeips me out.

Last Halloween, I was really intoxicated. I decided to go sleep. The next day I wake up off the bed and my friend was sleeping in the bed. I find lotion all over me. I talk to some of my friends later and sleep pictures of my friend and I sleeping in the same bed.

Weird things happen in my life.

Spades with Pros

So I was telling the stories of my early days in Atlanta and I decided to write them down.

When I first moved to Atlanta, I moved in a bad part of town there were prostitutes and crackheads in my neighborhood. My roommate was also an interesting man. He was very gregarious type of person. He would befriend almost anyone and everyone. I will talk about him in further detail some other time.

So one day, my roommate decides to bring some of the neighborhood prostitutes. They were outside of my room around 3 in the morning. They needed an extra person to play a game of spades. They decide to wake me up to play. I say "why not?" So we start playing. They were actually pretty nice girls. One girl worked at Target sometimes. They seemed like nice people and actually were pretty funny. At least funny enough on a Tuesday night/Wednesday  morning. We were having a good time. Then one of the girls wants a cigarette. She asks everyone and nobody had any. She leans over to me and asks if I would like to go to the bathroom with her. I ask "why?"She says to provide some services. She said she'll do it for four bucks. FOUR BUCKS!!! Not Five but four. Maybe she thought if she asked for 5 it would have been pushing it. So I just decided to give her the money without any services. Pretty disgusting and I mean the cost of penicillin would be more.

So just one of my stories of the ATL. More to come in the future.

Detox

DR. Dre has done almost everything in Hip-hop. He has affected three generations as a producer, record executive and artist. He was one of the founding members of NWA. The guys who put gangsta rap on the map. He then starts his own label the infamous Death Row. Finds guys like Snoop Dogg, Nate Dogg, Warren G and the legendary Tupac. He then leaves that label to start Aftermath. People laughed and questioned his decison for leaving Death Row. He starts Aftermath and basically doesn't get a star artist for a long time. He finally finds this skinny white kid named Eminem, who becomes the biggest rap star ever. 

He also releases Chronic 2001. One of my favorite albums of all time. Besides the skits (I hate skits), I loved almost every track. I listened to it again a couple of months ago and it was so fresh. It felt like I was back in 1999 listening to it on the bus. The best part of Dre's beats are the keyboard. I love when the keyboard is hitting and its just music that you can vibe too.

I have been waiting for his new album Detox for 4 years. The first time I heard he was coming out with a new album, I was so hype. For years, it was rumored that he was working on Detox. A song with Jay-z was leaked and it was terrible. Dre said it wasnt complete....I was angry. Finally, he drops his new single "Kush". You know what? I freaking love it. I first played it in my car the other day and it was like magic. The bass just hit me and then when the piano hits.......MY GOODNESS! This is my new favorite song, listen to it and love it.



Some videos that are awesome.
Blake Griffin one of the baddest men on the Planet!!!

Enoch Chang's "like a G6" is awesome. Makes me want to dance, biting my lip like a white man.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ime2ZnaRVbc&feature=autoshare

UGGS

In college, the whole Ugg trend was starting up. I went shopping with a girl and they wanted to buy Uggs. I started to feel the liniing. I put my hand in it and it felt so warm and comfortable. I felt like my hand just woke up in a winters day and didnt want to get out of bed because it was so damn comfortable.

From that moment, I wanted to get myself a pair of Uggs. The problem is that it is not socially acceptable for a man to wear Uggs. Matter of fact, it seems pretty gay. If I saw myself wearing them , I might make fun of myself. Then, the movie I Love You Man came along. One of the actors, Jason Segel, is wearing Uggs with some shorts. Pretty Crazy. Then my friend in Korea tells me that guys are wearing it there. All the signs were pointing for me to buy them. I went on the website and everything, but couldnt do it.

My friend sent me a facebook invite. It was International Uggs day in November something. Temptation comes around again.

Song of the week

Black and Yellow- Wiz Khalifa (Pittsburgh)

Everything I do I do BIG!!!!!

The Way We Move

I was at church one day and saw a man walking with daughter. The odd thing was that he was showing her how to walk with heels. This man was short and he had a tall daughter, who was maybe 16-18. He was actually moving his hips and telling her how to move in her heels. He did it with such ferver and passion that he kind of made me want to move that way as well. I think he showed her like a couple of moves. It was hilarious.

I loving walking in the streets. One of the things I miss the most. I love to watch other people move and interact with each other. Its fun making fun of the people just walking. 

Women. Crazy sometimes. Just the way they walk can drive a man insane. I understand the father teaching his daughter. It seems that many women dont know have a good walk in their heels. A good high heel walk is a sight to behold.

Vulnerability

So the other day . I was at a restaurant and I had to go to the bathroom. I had to take a number two. I am sitting there and I hear someone trying to open the door, but it is locked. I am pretty quick in the bathroom, if you know what I mean. But another guy wiggles the handle, and he kinda pushes hard and opens the door. He sees me, but there is that pause. He looks at me and I look at him. Our eyes meet. Freaking awkward moment. Worst thing was that some highschool kids were behind him. They just are laughing and I can hear them while I still am in the bathroom.

He caught me at a very vulnerable moment. I was wondering, what other times I have been very vulnerable. My dad left me at the age of four. I probably have only seen him a number of times after that. I think like 10 give or take.But I think when I was a teenager or a tween as kids would say. My dad calls me out of the blue. He says he wants to meet up with me. At that time, I was done with this guy. I haven't talk to him in a very long time maybe 5-6 years. I was very angry, confused and a little irked at the same point. I remember just crying. I was so out of control with my crying. I dont think I have ever cried like that again. Im not the type of person who is ashamed of crying or anything. I think that might have been one of my most vulnerable moments in my life.

Haters

Hater. What exactly is a hater? Wikipedia says, "Hater (slang), a person who expresses intense feelings of hatred or spite, when the reason for this is perceived as unreasonable or spurious." I am a self proclaimed hater. First time are heard the term hater was in a hiphop song probably around 95, a PHD Playa Hater Degree.  I hate things I guess that are popular with some people sometimes for no good reasons. 


For example, I hate Justin Timberlake. I love his music, his acting has improved and seems like a genuinely nice guy and is pretty cool. If I met him somewhere I would probably like him, but something about him rubs me the wrong way. Maybe its his hair or his high voice. Whenever I hear him talking, It just irks me. I also dont like that fact that he thinks hes funny. Dude your not that funny. Dick in the Box was funny but that was because of the other guy. Something about his face makes me want to just want to punch him. But he was pretty good in the Social Network, but for some reason I still hate him.


Are we haters or just people who tell the truth? If we say our opinion like I dont like so and so, people would consider that person a hater. I just say they are keeping it real. Dave Chappelle says Keeping it real does go wrong. Obviously in society we cant always say whats on our minds. Its called filtering. People think that I dont have a filter, but that is false. I do have a filter, but my filter just might not be great. If I said everything on my mind, people would think I am one of the worst human beings on earth. Maybe. I think if we all said what was on our minds, we would probably hate each other and then we would all be haters. 




Some random things of the day


So in small group we were talking about dog fighting and just eating animals and why some animals are pets. Wel I said I wouldnt just kill an animal unless i was gonna eat it not just kill stuff for sport. I said I would eat a dog or a deer. Then someone said"How about cock fighting". I said "I would eat a cock". Immediately after i said this I regretted it. I felt like shoving the words back in my mouth, but it was already said. Silence fell over the room. I looked around and of course my roommate Nathan was there and if you know Nathan you dont want to do that in front of him or jst let him hear about it  . Everyone looked at me and It was terrible.


"I love this video. It has some gay black dude dancing, but I love it. The gay black circus dude makes you think your gay." 


"If he is not gay then I am not straight."


Video of the day






I love how she was so serious when she said it.

Another random thought

Saw an attractive white woman in her late 20s early 30s with an asian teenage kid. I think she was his tutor, but she was like stroking her hair, giving him these sexy looks and looking all sexy . If she is not his tutor, should I be like damn kid you gots game or should I be like damn woman that is rape.

Four things I like that are kind of embarrassing

1 Comic Books: I remember going to church when I was younger and this kid showed me a X-men card. It was like a baseball card but with X-men. They told me how cool it was and showed me these comics. I thought it was pretty awesome. I love the drawings and storylines even still . Reading them now, they are more tailor made towards adults. Deal with real issues like sex, divorce and other relationship topics. For some reason I dont like mangas or anime though.

2 Sports talk radio: I always like sports talk. I remember being a kid in my moms store and listening to it in a small closet/room. I love sports, but I also loved how people would express themselves. They would let out their frustrations or their humor. I guess they kind of taught me how to be a man in some ways.

3 Celebrity gossip: My mom use to read those magazines in the grocery line. I started to do the same thing. I was always interested in the dirt. So I am still a whore for gossip. I look at the sites pretty religiously.

4 Minesweeper and spider solitare: I dont know I just like playing those games. But I feel like an old man when I play them. I feel like I should be playing cooler games like StarCraft.

Pregnancy

Lately, I have been seeing many pregnant ladies. It seems like everywhere I go I at least see one lady who is pregs. Its really an awesome thing. Something about pregnant women, they have a glow around them and everyone is happy for them. For some reason I was thinking this week that I wanted a baby. I mean if I think logically, I know I cant raise one.

I dont know why I was thinking that this week. Is it because I am bored with my life? I heard in my pastors message, that children are expression of your love. Its kind of sad that I want an expression of my love by myself. I dont know, maybe I want to pass on my legacy.

I am the last of my bloodline or namesake. If I dont have a son, my lineage is dead. A lot of pressure. Maybe  I should pray for my sperm to be manly. I really dont care if I have a son or daughter . I mean I do care, but I think I would love them no matter what.

I want kids. But I think I should wait another ten years. or Five or maybe get a girl pregnant today.'

No ten years sounds good.

Movies

I love movies. I remember the first movie I ever saw in the theaters was Bambi. I was kind of hooked. Movies always transported me into a different period or different peoples points of view. You also realize that your not so weird compared to other people. You feel like that there are many messed up people in this world not just you. I love dialogue and acting. I love crappy movies, great movies, erotic movies jk. So heres a little list of my top movies.

All time tops
Gladiator
Godfather
Pulp Fiction
Matrix
The Usual Suspects

Kung Fu movies
Fist of Legend
Ip Man

Korean Movies
Friend
Old Boy
My Sassy Girl
The Good the Bad and the Weird

Love Stories
Before Sunrise
Love Actually
Harry Met Sally
500 days of Summer
16 Candles
Knocked up

Comedies Movies
Anchor Man
The Hangover
Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Half Baked
Old School
Something about Mary

Action Movies
Terminator 2
Blood Sport
Casino Royale
Die Hard

Trilogies
Alien
Bourne

Foreign
City of God
Amelie
Pans Labyrinth
Battle Royale
Let the Right One In

Top Five this year
Inception
Kick-Ass
The Town
Scott Pilgrim Vs the World
Toy Story 3

Films Im looking forward to
Let Me In
Social Network
The Tourist
True Grit
The Fighter
127 Hours

The Happiness Factor

I watched this video the other day. It made me think about our state of happiness in this world. 

Here is a little blurb about this video:

Statistician Nic Marks asks why we measure a nation's success by its productivity -- instead of by the happiness and well-being of its people. He introduces the Happy Planet Index, which tracks national well-being against resource use (because a happy life doesn't have to cost the earth). Which countries rank highest in the HPI? You might be surprised.

There is a song, "Satisfied Mind", that says Money cant satisfy you alone'. We see many people who have had millions of dollars self-destruct. This video about what can we measure progress in our society. It is not just money that makes life better. So what makes life worth while? How should we measure our lives? I mean as a Christian, I would say to bring glory to God. Marks is talking about happiness and love, but God is love and happiness. This talk reminds me of my  walk with God and how can I give more. I think God made us to give. When we give or share, we do feel happier.

I am lazy and selfish. There are so many opportunities to give, I just make excuses. So, I guess I need to make more of an effort to give. Giving helps us connect, be active and take notice of our society.

I also want to move to Costa Rica now. 

Panda Video

Thought that this commercial was hilarious. This is a commercial for Panda cheese, not to worry it is not made from panda milk. Also, its an Egyptian company so they do have humor in the middle east.

Whenever I wake up

Waking up used to be such an easy thing for me. I was able to jump out of bed and get excited about the day. Matter of fact, breakfast is my favorite meal of the day. My family would always gather around the table and eat breakfast. We were so busy the other times of the day, but always had time for breakfast. I remember my grandmom just making ridiculous stuff. She would make fried rice, grits , bacon , cheese steaks and all kinds of great items. It was just crazy. We would just have these talks about all kinds of stuff. It was just the moment of day that would bring us close and tighter. We always had to rely on each other and breakfast was our catalyst.

What must I do to make myself a morning person again? Well, I think I am a morning person when I can finally roll out of bed. I actually love my drives. I love listening to music or sports talk radio and wondering what I am gonna do this day. My song I listen to is Wake Up by Arcade Fire. I just love when they have this wail. Sometimes I like to wail when I wake up. It just lets all the bad things from the previous days out. Makes me feel like," Damn son, Day is starting and the day is gonna be mine.:


Second song is PSA by Jay-z. I feel like I am introducing myself back to the world. It also hypes me up and want to punch the day in the face.



I am going to be a morning person again and I will start Pwning the day!!

Sad Keanu

Was reading an interview with Keanu Reeves and reminded me of these pics.

Double Standards

So we are all aware of double standards in our society between men and women and also between races. I bring this up because of the reporter Ines Sainz. She alleges that she was harassed by the New York Jets Football players. She says that they were acting inappropreicate around her, but shouldnt she expect that from about bunch of immature men in their 20s who make a living off of a childs game.

I understand that it must be difficult to be a woman in a predominantly male driven industry. You also probably have to set yourself apart. I am all for women using whatever talents they have to get ahead. I guess coming from a single parent home, I feel for women. I respect them, but dont be angry when you get mistreated when you look like a prostitute.



Got to say, she has one of the most glorious butts I have ever seen.

Why don't laugh anymore??

One day a friend of mine and I were in a car. She says that it seems like adults dont laugh as much. I started to wonder why. Laughter is one of the greatest things in life. Laughter is primitive, a reaction that is so natural that we as a human race can all speak the same language. It is an expression of the soul. 


Laughter is the shortest distance between two people.  ~Victor Borge


When I look at children, I feel they are so lucky. They just laugh and laugh alot. A lot of times we dont even know why. They think some stuff is funny to them and go about their merry way. It feels like we as adults want to always be taken seriously, so we have to be stern and stoic. Is that really being mature? My dad many times is very serious looking. It kind of makes me feel bad. Im like "Dude, I think life sucks so just give me one smile." 


We need to laugh more in society. Life grinds on you and many times it gives you shit. We need to take it in motion and just laugh it off sometimes. 


So once, I was at a thing and they did a skit. The skit was so serious (it was about sexual assault) that I ind of felt awkward. I needed to laugh about it. Was I wrong??( Plus it was an real account) You damn right I was wrong, but the laughter helped me get over the uncomfortable feeling. 


Stupid things that make me laugh: Someone getting hit in the groin, people falling, reminising, making fun of random people, food hitting someone and etc.

Football: Love of the Game

Football. The word just get me excited. This week was the start of the college football year. For me college football is ok, but the real deal is the NFL. Having said that, I just love all kinds of football. My old church use to have a womens flag football game every year with other churches involved. I even got excited for that.

Something about the fall weather, combined with the aggression, sweat, blood and determination gets me so revved up. I love the physical play. I think it is something primintive inside of us that makes us love football. I love the schemes, trick plays, blitzes, running, juking, spinning and etc.

I have been watching this show called Hard Knocks. It follows a team through training camp every year. This year its the Jets and it is amazing. It shows the intensity that comes with being a professional. They show the preparation and team unity.

To be continued......

To Be A Hugger or Not?

So some guy was telling a story about this other friend, He was saying that he use to be a hugger in college , but not so much now. I dont think I ever have been a hugger. Im not saying I wont hug people, but I am not much of a hugger. When I hug someone, I kind of mean it. I hate the butt out hug and the Christian side hug. I dont want to hug someone that is kind of weird. I rather just give you a high-five, black power fist, fist bump, chest bump, or even a slap on the butt. People let us not be awkward.

Things I want to do by I am 30

I am 26 and it has been almost two months since I have turned 26. I feel that I need to be more goal oriented with my life. Im not sure if I have accomplished many things with my life. I would like not to waste my life and look back on it and say, "What the fuck? I did nothing with my life". So heres my list. Most of them are not real big things, but as long as I can just accomplish some things

Thirty things to do before 30

1 Skydive
2 date a legit model
3 at least be on the way to know what i want to do with my life
4 go to europe
5 learn stick shift
6 learn a new language
7 learn to play an instrument
8 own a tuxedo
9 wear that tuxedo to a bar, just because
10 go back to korea
11 rock climb a real moutain
12 be able to wear a med t-shirt and 32 jeans
13 be able to dunk a small ball
14 run a 8 min mile
15 be in a band
16 be in a meaningful relationship
17 know the bible
18 learn how to tie a bow tie
19 shoot a gun
20 read more
21 have a six pack
22 learn to cook at least 20 dishes
23 be able to change my oil and brakes
24 fight in an octagon
25 own my own business again
26 kill a wild animal
27 go on a safari/cruise
28 fall in love and maybe out of love
29 make my own movie
30 learn to tango
 

Bro Code

First of all, I dont really like the word BRO. Also, most forms of bro, except brother. Especially broseph, probably most douchey thing to say.

Bro Code is something that is an unwritten rule between most men. We follow these unwritten rules in society, but shouldnt we just tell each other. Unwritten rules are hard to distinguish. A-rod last year yelled at a guy trying to catch a pop up and he was critized for breaking a unwritten rule. Well is that fair? Its not a real rule, because then it would be in the real rule book. Should we be offended by these acts?? 

The code gets people into trouble a lot. Personally, I dont think that every guy knows it. For example, a guy who doesnt really have many guy friends. You know the guy that who is mostly with just his girlfriends and doesnt really hang out with guys. 

I think some people just dont care about these rules. Does that say something about their character or should they be commended for their brashness?

For me, I think that as a society we need to follow rules written or unwritten. Bro code is one the essential ones. Why? because ninja!! We as brothers need to look out for the well being of each other. For example, You have to be a wing man and entertain the friend sometimes. Even if shes ugly or dull, you have to get her out of the way so that your friend can work his whatever. 

So people keep the bro code and if you dont know it holla at your boy and Ill drop some knowledge. Heres a video on some bro code etiquette.

Risk Taker??!!!??

A friend said something to me the other day that stuck in my head. He said ,"Dan Park, your a risk taker." I thought about that statement this weekend and said yeah I am a risk taker. But upon further introspection, I think I was a risk taker. Am I still the same guy???

At the age of 19, my friend and I decided to start a business. We had an idea and ambition, but didnt really know what we were doing. We got the business started, and had a store front. We were actually in business a couple of years. Eventually, things fell apart. I risked money and time at that point. 

After college, I decided to come to the ATL. I didnt know anybody here and just had a job. I was uncertain what I was gonna do. Yeah I had a job, but not much else. I decided to come here basically on a whim. Got on craigslist and found a place. Didnt know my roommates were gonna be crazy and another risk. Thinking about it, I could have at least been robbed or shot. Im from Philly though and I am use to that. 

The past two years while I have been in Atlanta. I feel that I havent really taken too many risks. I wonder why???Is it because I am getting old  and more cautious or Is it because I dont have the opportunity. I dont want to walk through life. I want to run. I may fall, but I'll get back up and keep taking risks. Let the risky business begin!!!

 

Let's Be Friends

I liked this one girl and I asked her out. We went on a date and actually wasnt that great. I thought conversation was good towards the end, but maybe not good enough to save it.

My personality is the type not to like many women. Maybe, I am picky or whatever but  that is for a different post. But I thought I liked her a lot. I really liked her personality, she is cool and quirky. 

So, she said the phrase that everybody dreads, "Lets be friends." NINJA PLEASE moment. I mean I think I have enough friends. Its kind of assholish to think that way, but after some contemplation I would like another friend in my life. I should have known because on the "date" it didnt feel like one. It just felt kinda weird. 

Anyways, I was pretty disappointed for about an hour and tried to go to sleep. Fucking coffee, why do I drink thee??? But after about an hour I was kinda-sorta fine with it. I eventually went to sleep. The next morning, as I was waking up, I felt the best I have felt in a long time. I was joyful and happy. Maybe the happiest I have been in a long long while. I wondered, "Why are you happy?" I think I was happy because I got my feelings off my chest and went through with my actions. I accomplished something. Even though the end result wasn't in my favor, I took a risk and did something.

This morning, I felt like I was living. I was a zombie for a while, but now I am living again. I rose from the dead, brushed my shoulders off and went my way back to where people live. I dont know why, but I felt that I got my swagger back. My mojo is back.(insert: Oh behave- Austin Powers). Honestly, I wasn't too excited about the girl after the date. It wasn't like some dates I had, where I wanted to see the person immediately. Singing the song "When Can I see you Again" by babyface. I think thats why it didnt really bother me too much. But I love the feeling of potential love. The feeling that someone you can spend the future with. Call me cheesey, but I dont care. 

One more thing to add...Im gonna start living like I should be. No more sitting on my ass and complaining about stuff not happening in my life. No I will be an earth shaker no matter what. Self encouragement is always good. 

Differences

Just looking at my life in the past couple of years, Ive realized that I have changed so much. My views upon religion and just on the things in life. I think i have been more conservative. I dont know. Sometimes I wonder what I will be like in the next 5 years. Talking to a friend the other day, he said that he hasnt changed the last 5 years. I feel ibad for him. Is he in a place of arrested development??? Or maybe we all at a point in our life fall into arrested development. I wish and hope that I will never get to that point. Once I do , I might as well die right . Because if we are not growing, we are not living. God, I hope I live life with no regrets, but maybe regrets are good. Change is something that we should cherish and love.

No direction or Home

Am I a rolling stone? I ask myself that as I am contemplating moving sometimes. My roommate ,Nathan, asked me whether I was going to stay a while. My mind is so fickle. Should I stay or should I go? There is nothing really that is holding me back. I wouldn't mind staying, but I wouldn't mind leaving. I want to be a man that has experienced the tastes of the world. The wonders of life. The experience of meeting people who are not like me. My soul wants to run away sometimes.

Do I have to ask what am I running away from.

We will see. I need to keep praying, keep thinking.

Do I want to gather moss?