Wednesday, June 20, 2012

bathroom

The bathroom subject has been big in my life right now. So when I was younger I never liked using the public bathroom. I dont think anyone does. I remember taking a poop in elementary school and being so embarrassed. But I had to go really badly. I went to Catholic school and we all had a bathroom time. So I snuck in there. Trying to be discreet as possible, but it was a watery one. Sounded like a bunch of pig slop hitting a puddle. Came out and the kids teased me. By the time I was in highschool, it was pretty normal to take craps. At my job it became a safe haven. A place where I can get away for 15 minutes. We have these motion sensors at work and sometimes the lights would go off while im still on the toilet. Smart phones have revolutionized taking a crap. You dont have to take a magazine in there anymore. You have games, emails, articles and could even do work while your in there now.

Im a fast person on the toliet especially at home. I dont like to waste time. Go in, clean up and leave. Everyone is different. Some people bring their own wet wipes. I think sometimes maybe I should switch it up and become more efficient some way. I dunno we have a whole life of being on the toilet ahead of us.

Heres a funny video:

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day

So a couple of posts ago, I wrote about my mother and how great she is. My father and I do not have that kind of relationship. Really, we dont have any relationship at all. My father left my mom and me when I was about 4. Since then, we really haven't had too much a relationship. I had bitterness and anger towards him. Now all I have is apathy for him. It sucks but thats life right.

But I'll keep on trying to build something with him. Blood is Blood I guess.


Thursday, June 14, 2012

June 1st


June first has always been an important day for me. It is the day I left my mother's house and lived out on my own. I went to a new city. I didn't know anyone and said that I will try to make it on my own. So I called my mom and told her this. Her reaction was what did you do with your time so far. I just drove around the whole day and thought what I did these last four years. A bunch of jobs that haven't really helped me figure what I want to do, no dating relationship currently and it seems like a whole lot of nothing at least on the surface.

There is one thing that has happened. I changed. I'm not sure when it happened. Maybe its been a culmination of the last four years, but when I talk to people who knew me in the past they said I have changed. Changed for the better. My mom mentioned it the last time I saw her. I guess when your parent says something like that it weighs the most. It seems like most of the time they are disappointed in you,  but for them to say that you changed for the better. She said I was more responsible and a couple of other nice things. I gave her the "WTF" look. I was kind of shocked she would tell me that.

So I guess the last four years have been great for my own personal development. Hopefully in the next couple of years, I can look back and say that much more has changed for the better.