Four things I like that are kind of embarrassing

1 Comic Books: I remember going to church when I was younger and this kid showed me a X-men card. It was like a baseball card but with X-men. They told me how cool it was and showed me these comics. I thought it was pretty awesome. I love the drawings and storylines even still . Reading them now, they are more tailor made towards adults. Deal with real issues like sex, divorce and other relationship topics. For some reason I dont like mangas or anime though.

2 Sports talk radio: I always like sports talk. I remember being a kid in my moms store and listening to it in a small closet/room. I love sports, but I also loved how people would express themselves. They would let out their frustrations or their humor. I guess they kind of taught me how to be a man in some ways.

3 Celebrity gossip: My mom use to read those magazines in the grocery line. I started to do the same thing. I was always interested in the dirt. So I am still a whore for gossip. I look at the sites pretty religiously.

4 Minesweeper and spider solitare: I dont know I just like playing those games. But I feel like an old man when I play them. I feel like I should be playing cooler games like StarCraft.

Pregnancy

Lately, I have been seeing many pregnant ladies. It seems like everywhere I go I at least see one lady who is pregs. Its really an awesome thing. Something about pregnant women, they have a glow around them and everyone is happy for them. For some reason I was thinking this week that I wanted a baby. I mean if I think logically, I know I cant raise one.

I dont know why I was thinking that this week. Is it because I am bored with my life? I heard in my pastors message, that children are expression of your love. Its kind of sad that I want an expression of my love by myself. I dont know, maybe I want to pass on my legacy.

I am the last of my bloodline or namesake. If I dont have a son, my lineage is dead. A lot of pressure. Maybe  I should pray for my sperm to be manly. I really dont care if I have a son or daughter . I mean I do care, but I think I would love them no matter what.

I want kids. But I think I should wait another ten years. or Five or maybe get a girl pregnant today.'

No ten years sounds good.

Movies

I love movies. I remember the first movie I ever saw in the theaters was Bambi. I was kind of hooked. Movies always transported me into a different period or different peoples points of view. You also realize that your not so weird compared to other people. You feel like that there are many messed up people in this world not just you. I love dialogue and acting. I love crappy movies, great movies, erotic movies jk. So heres a little list of my top movies.

All time tops
Gladiator
Godfather
Pulp Fiction
Matrix
The Usual Suspects

Kung Fu movies
Fist of Legend
Ip Man

Korean Movies
Friend
Old Boy
My Sassy Girl
The Good the Bad and the Weird

Love Stories
Before Sunrise
Love Actually
Harry Met Sally
500 days of Summer
16 Candles
Knocked up

Comedies Movies
Anchor Man
The Hangover
Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Half Baked
Old School
Something about Mary

Action Movies
Terminator 2
Blood Sport
Casino Royale
Die Hard

Trilogies
Alien
Bourne

Foreign
City of God
Amelie
Pans Labyrinth
Battle Royale
Let the Right One In

Top Five this year
Inception
Kick-Ass
The Town
Scott Pilgrim Vs the World
Toy Story 3

Films Im looking forward to
Let Me In
Social Network
The Tourist
True Grit
The Fighter
127 Hours

The Happiness Factor

I watched this video the other day. It made me think about our state of happiness in this world. 

Here is a little blurb about this video:

Statistician Nic Marks asks why we measure a nation's success by its productivity -- instead of by the happiness and well-being of its people. He introduces the Happy Planet Index, which tracks national well-being against resource use (because a happy life doesn't have to cost the earth). Which countries rank highest in the HPI? You might be surprised.

There is a song, "Satisfied Mind", that says Money cant satisfy you alone'. We see many people who have had millions of dollars self-destruct. This video about what can we measure progress in our society. It is not just money that makes life better. So what makes life worth while? How should we measure our lives? I mean as a Christian, I would say to bring glory to God. Marks is talking about happiness and love, but God is love and happiness. This talk reminds me of my  walk with God and how can I give more. I think God made us to give. When we give or share, we do feel happier.

I am lazy and selfish. There are so many opportunities to give, I just make excuses. So, I guess I need to make more of an effort to give. Giving helps us connect, be active and take notice of our society.

I also want to move to Costa Rica now. 

Panda Video

Thought that this commercial was hilarious. This is a commercial for Panda cheese, not to worry it is not made from panda milk. Also, its an Egyptian company so they do have humor in the middle east.

Whenever I wake up

Waking up used to be such an easy thing for me. I was able to jump out of bed and get excited about the day. Matter of fact, breakfast is my favorite meal of the day. My family would always gather around the table and eat breakfast. We were so busy the other times of the day, but always had time for breakfast. I remember my grandmom just making ridiculous stuff. She would make fried rice, grits , bacon , cheese steaks and all kinds of great items. It was just crazy. We would just have these talks about all kinds of stuff. It was just the moment of day that would bring us close and tighter. We always had to rely on each other and breakfast was our catalyst.

What must I do to make myself a morning person again? Well, I think I am a morning person when I can finally roll out of bed. I actually love my drives. I love listening to music or sports talk radio and wondering what I am gonna do this day. My song I listen to is Wake Up by Arcade Fire. I just love when they have this wail. Sometimes I like to wail when I wake up. It just lets all the bad things from the previous days out. Makes me feel like," Damn son, Day is starting and the day is gonna be mine.:


Second song is PSA by Jay-z. I feel like I am introducing myself back to the world. It also hypes me up and want to punch the day in the face.



I am going to be a morning person again and I will start Pwning the day!!

Sad Keanu

Was reading an interview with Keanu Reeves and reminded me of these pics.

Double Standards

So we are all aware of double standards in our society between men and women and also between races. I bring this up because of the reporter Ines Sainz. She alleges that she was harassed by the New York Jets Football players. She says that they were acting inappropreicate around her, but shouldnt she expect that from about bunch of immature men in their 20s who make a living off of a childs game.

I understand that it must be difficult to be a woman in a predominantly male driven industry. You also probably have to set yourself apart. I am all for women using whatever talents they have to get ahead. I guess coming from a single parent home, I feel for women. I respect them, but dont be angry when you get mistreated when you look like a prostitute.



Got to say, she has one of the most glorious butts I have ever seen.

Why don't laugh anymore??

One day a friend of mine and I were in a car. She says that it seems like adults dont laugh as much. I started to wonder why. Laughter is one of the greatest things in life. Laughter is primitive, a reaction that is so natural that we as a human race can all speak the same language. It is an expression of the soul. 


Laughter is the shortest distance between two people.  ~Victor Borge


When I look at children, I feel they are so lucky. They just laugh and laugh alot. A lot of times we dont even know why. They think some stuff is funny to them and go about their merry way. It feels like we as adults want to always be taken seriously, so we have to be stern and stoic. Is that really being mature? My dad many times is very serious looking. It kind of makes me feel bad. Im like "Dude, I think life sucks so just give me one smile." 


We need to laugh more in society. Life grinds on you and many times it gives you shit. We need to take it in motion and just laugh it off sometimes. 


So once, I was at a thing and they did a skit. The skit was so serious (it was about sexual assault) that I ind of felt awkward. I needed to laugh about it. Was I wrong??( Plus it was an real account) You damn right I was wrong, but the laughter helped me get over the uncomfortable feeling. 


Stupid things that make me laugh: Someone getting hit in the groin, people falling, reminising, making fun of random people, food hitting someone and etc.

Football: Love of the Game

Football. The word just get me excited. This week was the start of the college football year. For me college football is ok, but the real deal is the NFL. Having said that, I just love all kinds of football. My old church use to have a womens flag football game every year with other churches involved. I even got excited for that.

Something about the fall weather, combined with the aggression, sweat, blood and determination gets me so revved up. I love the physical play. I think it is something primintive inside of us that makes us love football. I love the schemes, trick plays, blitzes, running, juking, spinning and etc.

I have been watching this show called Hard Knocks. It follows a team through training camp every year. This year its the Jets and it is amazing. It shows the intensity that comes with being a professional. They show the preparation and team unity.

To be continued......