Ride Slow

Today I was in a part of town that I am not usually in. I had to meet someone. After doing what I needed to do, I decided just to start driving. When I was in college, I would like to just drive. Didnt really have any destination. Sometimes would just get lost on purpose. I would get in the car and think. Sometimes I would pray. I haven't really done this in a while, but today I decided to. Have the radio on and drive. I think about the future and what it holds. I think about present and what I could be doing better or how I could build specific relationships. I think about the past and how things have changed. I usually drive for about an hour or two. Sometimes Ill park the car and just listen to the radio for a little bit. Its peaceful. No one next to me. Im not worried about the phone. Just me and my thoughts really. The road offers many opportunities. I guess serenity is one of them.

What two men cant do together

The other day I was at the museum. I was with a girl and a guy. I was wondering if it were gay or socially (like wearing an all velvet suit)not acceptable to go with another man. Here is my list. Please leave some comments and tell me what I should add.

Two men can't go eat tapas. Food is too tiny our hands are too big. Its also pretty dark.

Two men cant go to a movie together unless there is a seat of separation in between.  unless there is no space in the theater.

Two men don't share dessert.

Two men cant go to the bathroom together. They might be both headed there but not to go so they can talk. Gay.

What else cant two men do together?

Resurgence of AZN Pride

I went to highschool in 1998. In the late 90's, Asian pride was a huge thing. I went to a school that was mixed population. 40% white, 30% black, 15 % asian and 15% hispanic. So we had a good number of asian people in my school. We stood up to all of the other races. Matter of fact, alot of the asians were pretty gangsta. But of the Asians you had different races. You had the Korean, Philipino, Chinese, Cambodian and Vietnamese. Everyone was reppin their own thing ie KP (Korean Pride), Pinoy pride, Khymer pride, I forgot what the chinese were. We had Xanga and stupid screen names, but all of those things came from a pride and rebellion against the other races. I think we were tired of being looked at as a weak race because we weren't loud bosterous people. Overlooked by the public.

But it seems like in the late 2000's the Azn pride fell off. It felt like we are always trying to fit in with some of the other cultures whether it be black or white. Sure asians are more in the media and hollywood, but we weren't as expressive of our pride as before. Movies like the Hangover kind of set us back. KEN JEONG!!!!!! Then about a month ago Jeremy Lin pops on the scene (I don't like him by the way, but ill explain  in a  different post. Personal reason). Linsanity was everywhere.

Now its March and it kinda died down. But the thing about Linsanity was the resurgence of Asian Pride. If you looked on your Facebook, there were at least ten mentions of Lin. Asians were back on the forefront. Lin got the cover of Sports Illustrated twice (back to back). It seems like people were proud as hell to be asian again. We were angry about ESPN putting chink on their homepage link, mad at Floyd Maywhether link and other racists link.

The real story isn't Jeremy Lin, but its Asians actually being openly proud again. As an Asian man, I'm freaking excited. Were always portrayed as guys who are soft spoken, nerdy and weak. I'm tired of all the races thinking they can just take our girls all the time (they like them because they are "exotic"). People think they can just get over on us. But you know what we are also people with great pride. With Jeremy Lin, we are changing they way they look at us. We can have swag. We can dunk. I cant though and probably never will. I hope that he does well. I hope that we swell up with pride. I hope we can start changing how people think of us. I thought Id never see a black president, but it gives me hope that an Asian can rise up before I die as well.

60 percent

So this is why God is good. I am a hater by nature. I think I don't like about 60% of the people I meet, maybe even 65%. I just look at them and say I don't like that person. It might because they say something or act a certain way. I just don't really like people most of the time. When I do like a person, it takes me a long time not to like that person anymore. I give them a bunch of little chances in my mind.

God is good because He has been changing me in that department. I say "Dan, you don't know this guy enough to make a judgement." Still there are some people I don't like. But having that thought of giving that person an extra chance is huge. Hopefully in a year, Ill only not like 40% of the people I meet.

Too young to be feeling this old

I'm 27 right now. You hear the common expression act your age. The difficulty with that is "what are people my age suppose to act like?" I don't feel like an adult because I really don't have any responsibilities mortgage, children, spouse etc.

 The other day I went home early to relax on a Friday night at 10pm. I got home and part of me didn't want to "relax". I wanted to go out and do something.But I was home by myself, I felt extremely old and boring. Now don't get me wrong, I do like staying in sometimes. But it has to be with people. Just to go and be by myself on a Friday night. LAME. I looked in the mirror and the guy in the mirror said "Yo! What the hell are you doing!! Your young, you can't ever regain your youth. STUPID!".

Another example of me getting old, I met a couple of college girls I knew and they were on their spring break. I asked them what they were doing. They said they were going to hang out and get some drinks. They asked if i wanted to come. It was 11pm on a Thursday. I said I was tired and would hang out next time. If it were last year, I could have partied to the early morning and went to work. I would have been fine.

If you look at my last entries, I sound old. Not being good at texting. Sounding like a curmudgeon. I hate everything. I like oatmeal. I like pudding. Im sounding like an old man more and more.

Smile

I wasn't feeling the best this morning. I went down the stairs to my car to get something. This woman who was middle aged and average attractiveness gives me a look and a smile. It was "Hey, have a good morning type of smile." That smile really brightened up my day. I wasn't really attracted to her so it wasn't a sex thing. But it reminded me of the goodness in the world. Ive said this before its the small things that propels your life.