Day 2

Day 1.5- 2 of my Whole 30/Nob Nom

Last night was difficult. I went to a political fundraiser. It was a wine and cheese party :( . Thankfully, there was some fruit I could munch on. But it was very tempting to have some wine or cheese. Especially a beer. I hate being the guy drinking water while everyone is drinking alcohol. 

I needed to eat afterwards. We decided to go to cakes and ale. The absolutely two things I can not can not eat. But we ate at the dinner part of the restaurant. I was able to eat the steak and had to kind of special order it. 

This morning I tried to find eggs, but didn't have any. So I ate a steak again. I may have to go easy on the red meat as well.

Lunch kumbucha and paleo beef from whole foods. Its getting expensive. I need to cook tonight. 

I have small group tonight. I will have to try to get dinner somewhere thats healthy. Damn this is my life now. 

But I am feeling the energy drain right now. I'm feeling sluggish.

Day 1

First day of Whole 30 Let's Go!!!!!

Waking up I was about to eat this soup this morning and decided against. No soy. Not allowed. I picked up three eggs and fried them. Then I realized the way I have to live my life. Mindfully.....

My job I have to network a lot. I go to networking meeting and talk to people. I went to my weekly meeting and it was at this restaurant. I read all of the ingredients and I chose the side salad with olive oil on the side. All of the entree salads were not going to cut it. They either had cheese or the meats were glazed with something. They gave me some biscuit. I had before and it is divine. I chose not to eat it. I offered to the guys next to me and they declined. So, I stared at the biscuit for about 20 minutes. It kept calling out to me. "Hey Dan, just a tiny little bit....." I decided against it.

An hour later, I got a black coffee. I like it that way so no sacrifice there. I went to whole foods to get some lunch. I went to the hot bar and they have a paleo section. Paleo wings, roasted veggies and a sweet potato salad. MMMM so good. I ended up spending $11. Too much for lunch everyday. I will have to cook tonight.

I am going to a fundraiser later tonight. I will have to abstain from everything. The real challenge begins. I will let you know how it went.

The Whole 30

Its a new year....New Me right. Not really. Most of the time, I list a bunch of shit. Then, I feel bad about myself for not doing the goal I set out for. I've been listening to a lot of podcasts this year. Tim Ferris, the creator of the 4 hour work week, said that we should make little goals.

He had a suggestion for a thing called NOB NOM. NO Booze and NO Masturbation for a month. Let's do it. I don't think I indulge in any of those activities daily. So for a bigger challenge, I will combine it with the Whole 30 diet program. My boss has done it and lost a ton of weight. So its eating a certain way for 30 days. Just 30 days. Can't do today cause I would have already failed. So tomorrow... The site also said I should have a partner. I'll write this blog. This will be my partner. I can laugh at myself after these 30 days. 

I've been fat for most of my life. I'm actually pretty confident. But it would be nice to wear some nice clothes. I also want to look out for my future health.....Here we go a month of discipline. A month of submission. A month of being miserable. As I finished this sentence, I forgot about all of the football games coming up. But you know what Fuck it. Imma just do it. 

I will keep you updated. February 4 see you soon. 

2016

2016 is here and I realize the weaknesses that I have to strengthen. I have to become more disciplined and more organized. Everyone who knows me knows that I am really unorganized. I think it has hindered me in many different areas in life. I know that this is a big weakness and I have to make a change.
Practical thing I will do to be more organized:
Buy white board and keep track of things
Buy calendar and stay on top of it
Have a cork board and flash cards to arrange goals and different things.

I also have to be more disciplined (eating, exercising, work, spiritually) . I guess that's for everyone.
Practical things I can do.
Get a team to keep me accountable and don't disagree with them. Let them tell me and LISTEN to whatever they say.
Have Goals and reevaluate them every quarter
Reduce my goals by half. This is important so I can feel good about myself. Lower expectations are good things at times.
Forgive myself if I mess up, I read this recently from a guy who lost 125 pounds last year. I will fuck up, but its important to be nice to myself. Encourage myself. Team Dan.

Things I hate recently

When people tell me "You're Welcome" when I didn't say thank you. They'll make a suggestion and then go you're welcome. What type of arrogant thing is that? You're welcome....For real.. How about maybe if I like your suggestion and I thank you for it, the you can say you're welcome. But before that, come on man.

I see you next year.....No Ill see you in a week. Ive heard this little quip or joke too many times. Please stop saying that. It makes you look stupid and corny. Its like the people that clap when someone drops plates. Really are you ten? If you want to give them a clap why don't you just go help them asshole.

I love you

" I love You"




Its a phrase said in my house a lot. My mom says it to me, my grandmom says it to me and I say it to them. I know in many Korean households, this phrase is never uttered. I guess its suppose to be understood. I think sometimes it is said too much in my family. I say it to cousins, distant relatives and friends. I even say it to my Dad and were not that close. I especially like to say it on the phone to end conversations.




I talk on the phone a lot for work. At times after the conversation is done with a client, I have the urge of saying "I love you" to them, especially after I talk to a family member.



One time after I finished a conversation with my mom, a client called for a quick question. I was about to hang up and the phrase comes out. I hang up quickly. It was like I saw every letter come out in slow motion. I was frantically trying to pick up each letter and put it back in my mouth.


I knew I couldn't end the conversation that way. I call the lady. She seemed very confused. I explained and all I heard was laughter. I couldn't help but laugh as well.




This ended up not being the only time.......

Things I learned from the weekend

Taste and see that the Lord is good.

Kevin Spacey and Michael Keaton true OGs

Jennifer Lopez has some nice Golden Globes Jeremy Renner gets mad credit for saying what everyone was thinking.

I love Tina Fey. I would definitely marry her. She like my ideal woman. Smart, funny, beautiful, Eagles fan.....

You can''t find your true self unless you find it in God first

You will not understand freedom until you have freedom. Not until you have freedom will you find your true purpose.

Life of Walter Mitty can have a freeing affect on people

I want to try Chinese food in Italy. They give you fried ice cream instead of a fortune cookie.

Poland has good ice cream.

Korean bakeries are not as good as they were in the past.

Macon is considered Metro Atlanta

Things I learned from the weekend 12/29

This was stuff I learned from 2 weekends ago so the last weekend of 2014

Things I learned this weekend and part of last week

Never name your daughter Chastity. Sure you want her to be chase, but she’ll probably be a slut.

Never take a picture of you looking like your eating and island or anything phallic. Always looks like youre with a penis.

Never go drinking with a guy who says broski. You are bound to get white boy wasted.

Take uber when your drunk. Expect to get in a fight with the driver if your friend throws up in the car.

I hate Aaron Rodgers. He just so damn good.

Never trust Josh Smith, he sucks.

Never trust a guy named Kermit.

I’m too old to be drinking 151.

Puerto Ricans always have a Puerto Rican flag on them or close by.

Sometimes there is your favorite waitress at a restaurant. Always ask for her. Make sure you never get nubbin fries at Leon’s Full Service.

You know how there are flaky people in the world. Make sure you never invite them to stuff. Maybe they’ll change. Maybe they won’t but at least they won’t f’ up your plans.

Industry rule  People are SHADY!!!!!

It’s a wonderful life is soooooo GOOD. I can always watch that movie.

If a girl has a nose ring, I think I’m too old for her.

Cast Iron pans….always good

I think I like yoga pants on all women. I’ve seen big small medium all kinds of women in them. Can’t say I ever was like nah I don’t like that.

This guy used customer information at the bank to get her number. After he texted her, he realized it was a bad idea. Guys are stupid.\

Lumber sexual……

Girls have interesting jewelery necklaces. Like those big things with like teal stones. Looks cool. Like their royalty for a long long time ago. When things were simpler.

Gluten free just showed up like 3 yuears ago and about 35% of people think they have a gluten allergy.

Coworkers

My work place is not your average work place. I work at a bank but its in a supermarket. Some people will look at it a certain way. But I dont care, the money is the same as if I worked in a traditional bank.Were a very slow bank. So I have to be creative to get my clientele.the atmosphere is very relaxed.  I kind of get to do what I want.  I want to go eat or sometimes I just walk around and meet new people. I picked up a girl one time in the supermarket (thats a story for another day).

My coworkers are interesting. We are a good team. We genuinely care about each other. We try to help each other. Although whenever you are around people that long and that often little things bother you about them. My coworkers are messy and unorganized. Im not the most organized or clean person in the world but some of these ladies put me to shame. But all in all my coworkers are hilarious and its because we are so different. We love to mess around with each other and many times you'll hear us just being loud and joking with each other. We always say something is racist and pretty much say anything.

I always have to start with my boss because she sets the tone. She's a tall light skinned black lady who has very pretty features. She is not bad looking but she thinks shes the shit. Shes cool and as she likes to always point out (shes down to earth), very nice and sweet person, but is fake many times. Shes constantly making fun of people, cursing, making jokes and dancing. i always make fun of her and she just goes "Shut up Dan". Then she looks at me with her huge eyes trying to stare me down. She knows that it never affects me because too many women have looked at me like that over the years to affect me. I have like a bullet proof vest to those glazes. I usually just smile it off.

Second coworker is this black woman (pretty Girl with a pretty face and a big butt. There was this guy who just almost fell over when he was looking at her booty.) who always has some drama in her life. She is a woman who has boyfriend, mother , baby daddy, and etc drama. But I've got to say that she is so funny. She will crack jokes, dance, sing and etc. Yesterday she was talking about how she was having to run to the bathroom. She seems to sabotage herself many ways with the men she has or the job opportunities. 

The tellers are two white guys. The first guy is super anal. Hates it when someone touches his pens. He loves anime, pokemon and nintendo. One of my former coworkers thought he was gay but hes just a nerd. He likes to work out and hes very lean. He'll talk to someone about video games for hours. I argue with him about sports all the time. Hes very stubborn and hard headed, but hes funny too. He throws shots at people. 

The other teller we call the senator. Looks like an average SEC white guy. He dressed in his khakis and has the side part or qualf. He's into younger girls and that has gotten him into trouble. Like a bullshitter, he tells me hes not looking for a relationship but the last girl he was with he got attached to her. He's very bro. He goes, "hey broski, you doneski soon?" Then makes up words. So we make fun of him and he seems to roll with it. He goes bro-did-illi-de-de.  We call him white CT. He's not the best worker. He messes up all the time or sometimes comes in a little drunk. He pretty much a headache sometimes. 

My coworkers, like anyone you hang out with for long periods of time, have been shaping me a little. You see some of the things I listed about my coworkers and I know that I have some of the same traits. I see all the flaws in them, but you cant help but love them. Its weird that you coworkers become your family. Sometimes you have that brother or sister that annoys you or the embarrassing uncle, but you love them all the same. I guess coworkers are like that for small parts of your life. Good thing about coworkers you can leave them anytime.

eeeyyyaaaahhhh moments

In 2004 Howard Dean (a candidate for the democratic nomination) when on this infamous tirade, He just finished third in the Iowa Caucaus. The next day people kept playing this video. I heard it and I was like this man is nuts. "No way am I going to vote for him." as I muttered in my head. America agreed with me. He pulled out of the election in February. John Kerry won the democratic nomination and eventually lost to George W Bush for Bush's second term.

My friend and I were talking about this infamous moment because its still used in pop culture. The moment will live on in history as the eeeeyyyyaaahhhh moment (I think Im the only one who calls it that most people are just like "remember when that guy went nuts and started yelling state names and screamed at the end") . Dave Chapelle made a skit about it. I thought about that moment for a little bit. What if he never yelled? History could have been changed forever. Think about it.,,,,, Maybe Dean wins the nomination and beats Bush. It could mean that Katrina was never as messed up as it was. No Kanye saying that Bush hates black people. No 2008 recession. No Obama becoming President. No Osama Bin Laden Dying.

I know everything I just said was a big leap. BIG LEAP. But sometimes there are little things that can change history or your life, Life is just a series of moments. Most of life is just banal or boring. But the moments change your life. Small little eeeeyyyyaahhhh moments. Moments you probably dont even remember unless you really sit down and are like yeah that was a big moment. I remember sitting with this guy in my small group. I dont even remember his name. But I was making a choice between moving to Houston or Atlanta. After I talked to him, I knew it was Atlanta. I remember exactly what he told me. "Dan, Houston sucks" Those three words changed my entire life. That was my EEEEEYYYYYAAAAHHHHHH,

I Melt with You

I haven't written anything in a really long time. My apologies. But I think its appropriate to start with a praise to God. As I was going home, God shook me. He moved me like only He can. I like to tell people that I'll shake the ish out of them, but thats what God did to me tonight. Only God can melt my heart like that. In a split second, my heart can go from Cold to melted in an instant. As I was listening to the radio, God just chose to hit that switch. I want to Thank God. A feeling where all the love, joy, hope and peace is restored to you. In a single breath and my day, my week, my year was saved. Only God can do magical and miraculous things like that. If you never had that feeling, I pray that you do. Pray to God tonight to give that to you.


 O Lord, Thank you.