Post Week 4/1

So three months have passed and the quarter is over. As I reflect upon the quarter, I realize that it has been filled with mostly bad news. So this year has gotten off to a bad start. Work is not going so well. Fires are coming up that I cannot put out. I have been really busy and I am not sure if its taking a toll on me mentally. Things in my life feel like they are not moving too much financially, career, future, love life, etc. I wonder what I have to do to make it move.

The thing is though, I am happy. Hum du Allah (which means praise God). Sometimes I wonder if I'm happy because I'm a total idiot. It happens when your stupid. You are just happy for no reason like an animal. But I have been seeing a lot of good things in my life. People love me and I love them. Goals I have set in the beginning of the year are being or have been achieved:
Love people more
Spend more time with God
Be more intentional with people
Be more intimate with God
Know God more
Know myself more
Get in better shape
Read More
Get smarter
Finish class
Be there for people when they need it
Learn to be more selfless (I'm a selfish mother f*cker)

Goals remaining or things I have to work harder at doing:
Lose weight
Better organized
Clean my room more. Its pretty embarrassing.
Travel more
Make more money
Do something with my career. Know which direction to go when it come to that.
Be a better leader
Serve more effectively
Have more courage and not be afraid to tell it like it is
Buy a tuxedo
Skydive
Keep my promises

Thoughts about this past week:

Never mess with a guy with tattoos on his head

This guy loves the Phillies more than I do. He has a son dressed the same as he is too. They have their faces painted as well. We high fived a couple of times.

Went to opening game for baseball yesterday. I just love baseball. I love the roar of the crowd. Drunk people yelling. Booing me. Good stuff.

Never buy a florescent orange T Shirt with a kool-aid man on it. LOL

Although I have a big head. Their are still hats that look good on me.

Got my first Easter Basket ever. I know so white.

Ate Easter dinner for the first time.

Having a road trip with five guys creates terrible scents and great times.

DRIVE IT LIKE YOU STOLE IT!!!!

Fast and Furious has the best quotables ever.  

Thinking about girls fighting is funny and attractive to me. I love putting match ups in my mind. Some girls look like they can just mess people up.

WU-TANG!!! What again? Yeah AGAIN AND AGAIN????

There arent too many funny people in the world. Its like the number of good looking people.

I think people like talking to me. This stranger just started talking to me and it went on for like 20 mins.

Songs of the Week: Pour it up - Rihanna, Bugatti- Ace Hood, Nails in your Hands- Hillsong, Daylight -Matt and Kim

thoughts for Week 3/25

Last week was rough. Car broke down, lost my check card and tons of bad things happened. But in that I found grace from God. You know what it was sooo good. I have to admit that even though I am suffering I am learning more about myself. Maybe thats how God is challenging me. Stretching me. Causing me to grow. I had a moment of anger when the old me would have cursed this person out and threw something at her, but I held it in. Thought about Christ. It was tough and hard not to just do what your instincts tell you, but I guess thats how we get to be more human and less of an animal. We aren't just slaves to our instincts anymore. We are more than that. I guess Jesus is trying to tell us these things.

A person last week said that I have changed for the good. Its a blessing to know that you are not the same old person that you use to be. They said that they heard from someone else that I was a certain type of person. I'm glad that I'm not like that. I hope God can shine in those moments. Those moments are definitely glory to God moments. You have to worship God that you are not the same. You are moving towards perfection. People think that in life you can only get to a certain level and plateau. I disagree. Life is about contiguously getting better.

Had a moment of grace yesterday. I have been addicted to this song.

So Im singing this song in my car. The day was gloomy and no sunshine at all during the day. But out of the clouds a beam of sunlight hits my car. I am overwhelmed with Joy and Grace. Smiles and Tears are on my face. Glory to God. 

Saw a guy blowing drying between his butt cheeks in the gym. It was so weird. I never seen anyone do that in my life. I should have taken a picture.

I'm helping a friend by being a resource parent. Basically she wants to adopt kids and she needs two resources. The resources can provide babysitting and such. So I have to take 20 hours of classes. I'm in this room mostly with couples who want to adopt. They have so much love in their hearts. Most of them are there because they can't have kids on their own. Some of these people want to adopt a sibling group of 3. They don't care about race, how tall they are and etc. They want these kids to have a home and they want to be parents for them.

One of the guys, Big guy and doesn't look too happy, is so in love with his wife. Its really sweet and makes you believe in love. He says as long as I have this woman here I can do anything and will do everything.

CGI has come a long way, but it can still really suck.

Not sure what to think about the gay marriage vote.

If you pay 7 bucks for a pie, it better be delicious.

You can make money when you find something you love and your niche.

Had a huge steak. A flinstone type. Food fixes things.

March Madness is great. It cannot be replicated by anything. Upsets. Cinderella stories. Teams who are suppose to win, just pulling out nail biters.

Its good to make your lunch for the week. Healthy and good.

lots of good things about being single. I can do whatever the hell I want when I want. Its awesome.

 Trying to build a relationship with my dad again its weird.

Opened wine with a shoe and a pen.

FGC might be my favorite team of all time.

Thoughts for week of 3/17

It was a very interesting week. God taught me a lot not only about myself and what I have to work on, but also about His character. I realize that God really knows me . He knows how to get to me. Then I realize that all the things that happen in my life is because he knows how to deal with me. Sometimes we just need to submit and obey. Its a very very very hard thing, but in the end it is worth it. Less trouble and your heart is more at ease also.

The whole Football Free agency was just great. So much fun. Eagles totally revamped their defense.

GSP is a great fighter, but not exciting enough. He doesnt have that killer instinct to finish people.

Spent a day by myself and it was really interesting.:
Saw the Life of Pi. I thought it was really good, but I don't like this new age pluralism. It also felt like the movie was saying that we make up God.
Went to the gym.
Went to a bar. So I go there by myself and people start talking to me. Maybe I have this approachable face. I start playing poker and these people are good people, but I realize that I would never want to become like this people. They seem empty and lonely. Lots of the guys trying to get away from the banality of home. Some guy is there every week and getting drunk. Girls? not too many and mostly they were unattractive. It felt like a sad place.

Only went to the gym 4 times this week. My goal for five didnt work. The bad thing about going to the gym a lot is I feel like I can eat more bad things like a true fat ass.

Little things I like about life: Non verbal cues. When you meet eyes with someone and you have the same thoughts as them and give them a look. They respond to that look.

People blame things on other people to much.

Smoked wings are soooooo good. Fall off the bone.

Old-school is better sometimes

Old-school is not always better sometimes.

Its fun getting to know people.

People love hitting big guys. Some girl just rammed into me the other day. I don't really mind though.

I really like hitting small people. Knee to the face!!!!

Women should use sex as a weapon. If its in your arsenal, you can use it once in a while.

I hate it when people ask if you know that asian person. Just because Im asian I know every one. Its more embarassing when you actually do know them.

Respect is very important. But I really don't care if its coming from a person I don't respect.

Not always good to sugarcoat things. Honest feedback is needed.

Saw an Asian girl that sounded just like a black girl. I haven't heard that since Philly.

I made dinner the other day. My skills are improving.

High maintenance people are tough to deal with. I'm a very low maintenance person, so I have to make myself more accommodating to those people.

Halal meat is good stuff.

Hum Du Allah- means "praise to God". I really like it.

People have been coming to me with their romance problems or excitement. I say stuff , but I really don't know what I'm talking about. I think I'm just faking the funk. I words have no weight.

Sometimes we think too highly of ourselves.

Talking to someone can get you out of your slump.

Kevin Durant has a huge hand and small head.

White People are so corny sometimes, especially when black music comes on and they are all like WOOOOOO!!!!

thoughts for the week 3/11

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Week 3/3

This week I felt lazy. Fell behind in somethings. Looking to catch up, but its always a challenge to catch.

Thoughts for the week:

Change is a necessary thing. If you don't think you need to change, then you are an arrogant dumbass who will learn that it is necessary to change.

Matters of the heart are always tough to handle.

Lots of times you just got to shoot people straight.

Bearskin rugs are nice.

18 & over for women at a club is not a club I want to be at too often. I felt old. A decade older than a girl is too much.

My hand is kind of big. Its fat too. Adds to the hugeness of it. I had my arm around some girl and my hand was bigger than her face.

I can still make a good looking female bartender laugh.

Ask more from God.

Talk often to God

Kate Upton thought: Russian mail order bride looks like her. It looks like I know where my Christmas money is going.

David Crowder puts on a good show. Always blessed by his music.

Some Italian guy told me to check some pizza places out in the city. Im looking forward to it.

I've been singing praise music more. I usually sing r and b and hip hop, but lately its been more praise music.

Broke my phone. Its nice not having it for a while. The apps I need are probably Kakaotalk (EmoJis), twitter, and google maps.

I like bothering people way too much. Someone tells me not to do it, but I have too. Then I get in trouble.

Got some good stuff at the church bazaar.

People are weirder than me . Makes me feel good about myself.

I think I look too interested in peoples boring conversations sometimes. This guy and some girl just kept going on and on about somethings. Finally I did the walk away. I think about the time I wasted and what stupid things I could have thought about.

I hate cock blocking.

Lyric of the week: "With wisdom which means wise words be spokin" Rakim

Tracks of the Week- The naked and famous- Young Blood,

Week of 2/24

It was a weird week. I went to a funeral. I'm not used to being around death and grieving too much. Its weird for me. I guess its weird for most. I'm usually a happy person and it did really bring me down to see a friend in pain, but I did see God working in all of it.

Past couple of weekends, I've been going out a lot. I wonder if I should stop or just whatever. One of my friends was telling me to just enjoy and do it, because when I'm his age I cant do it.

I've been learning to love more and turn off the hate. Its really hard, but life isnt easy. Its simple but not easy.

Chik Fila breakfast buffet is always a good start to a day.

Ive decided to go to Uganda for a mission trip. Teaching about healthcare and soap. It might be dangerous. Nervous, but I know that God is leading me for a good reason.

"I know I just met you but...." I had a lot of those moments.

I enjoy making fun of people way to much. But I also show my love through that. I feel bad for the people I love.

Home cooked meals are always a great thing.

People are saying Kate Upton is chunky. If shes chunky, I wish everyone were as chunky as her.

Sometimes I talk too much. I just have to do.

Granny panties are probably one of the worst things to a man. Something all loose a unsexy. Must be the same feeling women get when they see guys in sweats.

Jennifer Hudson lost a ton of weight. She killed it at the Oscars too.

Someone said I like black girls. Its true, but I like to think I like all different colors of women. Any Ice cream flavor is good for me.

Hipster girls arent too appealing. It makes me question when the last time they took a shower. Its cool you where thrift clothes but you can smell better.

I really like Jennifer Lawrence. Funny and sexy girl.

Apparently, I have a ugly black woman voice I make when I am making an impression of a woman.

"I asked God that when I sang it, would He let it move men's souls."- Marvin Gaye talking the Star Spangled Banner

There are only two options regarding commitment. You’re either IN or you’re OUT. There’s such thing as life in-between.”—Pat Riley

"Young girls are great. Young girls and older ladies- it's the in betweens that are a problem." Quote from Girls on HBO

Ben Affleck has probably had the most amazing career ever. He started off in lots of small roles. Got big and his career flamed out. He was the butt of many jokes. Changed his image into directing, and now hes back on top.  When people pull a comeback, Im gonna call it an Affleck. 

Big weekend for women in Athletics. Ronda Roussey headlined an UFC  and Danica Patrick finished in the top ten of the Daytona 500.

A woman's scent is memorable

Catholics have had a bad year Manti teo, Notre Dame losing and the Pope retiring.

Songs of the week- 10000 reasons- Matt Redman, Power- J.cole, I dont wanna - Aaliyah

Thoughts for the week 2/10

This week was a great week. I started off by going to a WWE wrestiling event. Then went to Charleston with my mom and grandmom. Came back and went to some impromtou clubbing.

Sometimes there are opportunities there and you have to just jump on them.

I have a missions opportunity. I'm thinking about going. pray for me.

My mom nagged me, but I realize that I missed it a little.

My mom is funny too because shes a hater like me. Its funny what she makes fun of.

When you are with people with a good dynamic, you can talk about anything and it will be fun like shaving.

Kate Upton thought: SI cover girl again. So Hott.

"Cant be mad at a pig for being a pig." is slowly becoming my saying

"Thats how I feel in my head and not in my heart" funniest comment of the week

Invest and love people more and more.

"When you get a good mango, you have to eat it then and there. "

This woman was wearing pajamas at the continental breakfast part in the hotel we were staying at. It was not good. I was just trying to get a bagel and I leaned over and you can see inside the pajama through the buttons you know. I was like dang miss please cover up. Like Chris Rock said, "20 year old titty Community Titty. 30 year old titty. Thats your MANS Titty". She was past her 30s.

My grandmom said my mom hasnt laughed or smiled in a long time. This week she came to visit me with my grandmom and my Gmom said that this is the most shes seen my mom smile in a long time. Its pretty imperative to get my mom down here and living with me.

How does Nas not have a Grammy???? 17 nominations and nothing. This is a travesty. Fergie and Kid Cudi have a RAP Grammy over Nas. It makes me want to pull a Kanye and go on stage. STUPID!!!!

My grandmom is funny. She got pretty tipsy after one wine. She also has this guy constantly calling her. Its pretty cute. But growing up she always had these old guys bringing her stuff and all that. I always found it to be hilarious that old grandpas are trying to run game too.

cosby show wife still looks good

hole in the wall spots are always nice. I think its bc you dont expect much from the outside, but when you eat the food youre like WHOA. I'd like to think thats what Im like.

A beautiful woman can make you lose your train of thought and/or give you the best ideas.

 Lyrics of the week: these eyes can't wait to see your grin....../ Baby these fists will always protect ya/ And this mind will never neglect you

Charleston Thoughts:

Shrimp and Grits are amazing there. Seafood was great. Shucked oysters for the first time. Seafood and Beer is greatness.

The house were like houses I've never seen. Some real slave owner stuff.

I asked people what they recommend in Charleston and three guys told me white girls. They are pretty beautiful BTW.

southern people are really nice. A little too nice. Some Asian woman said Hi to me and I looked at her like "WTF"

I find some people really awesome and they encourage me.

Songs of the Week: Adorn- Miguel, Freshman -Verve Pipe, The Weight- The Band,

Thoughts for the week 2/3

This week is a week where I felt lots of love from many friends. Life really can't get better than knowing that many people love you.

Prayer is becoming more essential in my life.

Stop thinking the world is just filled with bad things. Sure there are bad things, but people are trying to change it slowly. Start helping!!

It must take lots of people's hair to make Beyonce's hair.

Beyonce put a great show on. Destiny Child's reunion was awesome. Its weird that out of all the men, I was the most excited for Beyonce. Whatever shes sexy and talented. Kelly Rowland is still great looking and definitely getting me motivated. Her skin looks so nice I just want to rub my face on her legs.

Fast and Furious 6 looks ok. But a 6th one seems like its too much..... Ill still watch it.

The more you love God; the more you will love yourself and the more you love yourself you will love people more. When you love people, people will love you back and you will appreciate God's goodness and grace more and more.

I've been more positive this year.

2chainz- "She had a big booty so I called her Big Booty". I feel like he needs to come up with a better nick name than that. Although I knew a girl who had big eyes and I called her Big Eyes.

Kate Upton thought: She is still sexy.

Why do people care if people are in the illuminate?

Women need to know that they are better than what they think they are in their own minds.

People in America treat dogs too well. They are your pets. Stop making them the masters.

Never come out to Techno music when you are fighting, bc you will get knocked the F' out. (Overeem)

Frankie Edgar is one tough Mother F'er. Jersey stand up.

I learned the difference between a macaroon and macaron.

Eating at girly places is nice once in a while.

God put the song Little By Little on my heart this week. I will make a post about this later.

God hit me with some grace this week too. Smacked me in the face.

Richard Gere is an underrated actor. Arbitrage is a good movie, check it out.

Songs of the Week- Landslide by Fleetwood Mac, First Cut is the Deepest by Cat Stevens, How Great by David Crowder

A girls cuteness can just change up your day.

Homemade stuff is not always good....I'd rather have little Chinese kids make my stuff sometimes.

Power outage in the SuperBowl Theories: Beyonce, Bane and Katrina (too soon to the guy who said it).

I realized I need to dress a little more grown man at someplace. Im also learning to be more of a gentleman but the shek side of me doesn't want to.

Fashion thought of the week: I want to get this checkered jacket this one guy had but I think Im too fat for it....nah I know I am.

Joe Flacco and Matt Ryan are gonna get paid.

Ray Lewis might have played his worst game in the SuperBowl.

Is it weird that I want to touch Ed Reeds beard?

Sixers suck. I cant wait til the draft or when Bynum comes to the team.

Jennifer Hudson looked damn good.

If I lost weight, would my head look too big for my body??????

Sundried Sumatra Coffee is excellent

Saw an Old asian guy with slacks and dress shoes just working out. Stop it sir it weird, but hes old so he can do whatever he wants.

Fighting, chicken wings and beer is an ultimate guys night.

If I were old, I do whatever I want to .

Watching people talk is interesting. Im picking more things up.

I had to put a cap on how many women friends I have. No more. New women who want to be my friend have to either date me or hit the road. But women have good perspectives on things I never think about.

I hope I like my future girlfriend's friends because that could be years of sadness.

Lyrics of the week: We all need faith cause the world keep changing/ Let go of the illusion start some restraining- Nas World is an addiction

Throwback moment: Imma let you finish, But Beyonce had one of the best Videos of all time.

Sports teams

Superbowl is this week, so I decided to write about sports.

This girl goes (in a bitchy tone too), "I don't understand why guys like the teams that suck. Why can't they  just like the teams that are good." I held in my anger, because I felt like slapping her and sending her to God a little quicker. I calmly said, "Would you want your husband to leave you after you had a couple of babies and your body is not as good as it use to?" Loyalty is a big deal. When I see a band wagon fan (a guy who jumps to good team to good team), I judge his character.  I know hes not a stand up guy. Sticking with a team and suffering through the lows is the key....maybe to life. Sure it would be easy to go to some other team, but when your team finally wins after years and years and years of mediocrity it is soooooooooo sweet. Its like the nectar of the gods.  

Another thing should be: dont be a fan of another team other than your home team. I hate the guy who has the Cowboys as their favorite football team, Braves as their baseball team and Bulls as their favorite basketball team. Basically it says that you liked them when they were good when you were young. So from your childhood you were a little bastard who couldn't take the suffering and had to latch on to these teams to make yourself feel better. You should be better than that.

Thoughts for the week of 1/27

Looking back on this week, it wasn't too bad. God taught me some stuff. I realized stuff about myself. Learned that I might have to be a little more aggressive with work. Learned that I can go back to school.

Thoughts of the week:

I hate when people check in on facebook now because it will show up on my phone: "Dan Park is near you at IHOP." I'm like and what...Should I go and say hello to this person bc hes two miles away from me. No, especially if I haven't seen him in a year. I don't care if youre shopping and youre four mins away from me.

Fashion thought: I wonder if I should get a double breasted coat....

Atlanta thought: How could someone live here for many years and not go to Atlantic Station at least once?
(BTW theres a spot with a nice view, and I forgot where the place was.)

Hooters has Jello shots for a dollar.

Went to a place with 50 or more white people for a couple of hours. I was the only non white person. I haven't felt that in a while. I wonder if they liked me more because I wasn't white.

White people like my hair.

I still think Jude Law is a Douche. (Capital Letter for a Reason)

Don Pedro is always solid.

Starbucks having wine is probably the highlight of the week.

I probably only need my "me" time for only a couple of hours. Don't need a whole night or day.

Stayed in on Saturday night.

A blow to the liver is my favorite knockout. It makes the other guy look like a pussy.

The Rock back in wrestling is making me want to watch wrestling.

30 Rock is ending (sad face)

Bomba from Iberian Pig is awesome.

Kate Upton thought of the Week: she is sooo hot

Women: Its funny how one moment of cuteness can diffuse my anger or just cheer me up. I am defenseless.

I dont like women with thin lips.

Older brothers and Sisters are really helping me.

People are loving on me and its awesome.

Worked out the other day and made some friends at the gym. They were showing me new exercises and such. Its weird to make friends when your old.

Zero Dark Thirty is the movie of 2012.

Little people (5'3 and below) are funny and feisty.

Bought some Birthday cards. Why are there so many cards???

Beyonce was lip synced. SMH

Music of the Week: ASAP ROCKY: Suddenly

God thought of the week. Read my last post

Lyric of the week : Sensitive thugs all need hugs- Jay-Z